I was pretty arrogant with my gifts as a young man, so most of my classmates took the initiative to cut me down at their earliest convenience. I think mostly due to my poor interactions with people growing up is why my confidence isn't astronomical. Living in an environment like that, I was always afraid of looking like a fool in front of anyone. These days, I'm not afraid to fail if the only casualty is me. I tense up really bad when I have to perform and others' futures are riding on my progress.