... I do not ever "live in the past", get "nostalgic" or hope that things never change.
The "past" to this Si-dom is an ever-evolving summation of all experience right up to and including the present. It serves as a comparative reference that helps me identify and parse the details of what is new/changed in my current environment so that I'm able to focus on those changes rather than needing to take in and assess the whole of the current environment from scratch.
Yes, I use the past as a tool... a compass... to navigate my world, but there is nothing magical about it, nor is it ever considered inherently better or more desirable than other possibilities.
I wasn't really a "bookworm" in school. Sure I did read books from time to time, but its not like I read a book every week. I never finished 99% of books either, and still don't. I've probably only finished a handful of books.
@jcal Your first sentence sounds more like something an INFP would daydream over. Haha.
I have never yearned to help people out with their problems. I like to listen and observe, I feel like I have good advice a lot of the time... but I don't just throw it at people or feel like going out of my way to 'counsel' anyone.
Yes, I do sometimes want to yell and scream and resort to insults like a stupid monkey with no self control because it seems like the only thing some people understand, but no, I can’t bring myself to stoop like that.
I am not ever an exploitative opportunist of the vulnerable.
I like to seek opportunities in what I consider high demand areas where vulnerable people are not exploited or conned
All I mean by that is I actually have ethics's (taha ok they may be more lax than most in some areas) but in other areas I can be highly principled to the point of self righteousness.
Yes I do have a natural eye for marketing and sales looking even into my child hood past times even that is entirely in my make up to set up various shops and sell.
But example I flounder If I look down on the product and service and think it's a bad deal or exploitive. The best example I have was when I was in corporate photography I really failed at my own sales because I could not justify pandering and exploiting old senior citizens with %300 mark up on products to spend their last of a monthly budgeted social security check. No just fucking no. I HATE aggressive sales tactics and walk off on those methods on my own and I certainly don't like shoving sales pitches down people's throats. Especially vulnerable people.
If I am pitching something it's to a specific market with soft sale and the interest and demand is there already.
I can thrive dramatically in an environment where the demand is there and All I have to do is actually demonstrate, promote, and do consultation. Like for example an expo. Those people are already in the market looking on their own. Vs trying to con someone into a product they weren't seeking. Because they are more vulnerable to promoting gimmicks, Fuck NO!
I am a lil shit in that way as far as corporate crap goes. Whether it's been in service industry like healthcare or when I was doing corporate photography. I would always add as much free shit every where I could fucking get one over the company, instead of get one over the consumer where ever I could find the technical loop holes to add product or free stuff to actually justify some cost. Taha when I used to do supply inventory & activities in health care I would always after getting needs tackled, assess how I could give as much back to residents. Seriously I could not justify hounding some of these low income residents for pennies to get laundry soap and personal care washes after they paid 5 grand a month to live there, fuck that here is a gift basket or bingo prize wow it's so coincidental it has everything you need and it was written off in activities expenses. Yes my bosses have always caught on, I get by with it because I meet production and efficiency standards and don't ever go over budget. They will grumble & lecture but they understand it's a necessity in the networking and repor so they turn their blind eye. I also do similar with staff budgeting and bonuses in whatever forms can be looted for incentive. Again upper administration knows they turn a blind eye after they grumble because they understand it can be effective.
If I am going to exploit anyone it's the exploiter not the vulnerable is my point. So if I am going to loot it is going to be in benefit to the vulnerable.