Hi,
I have been 'swimming' around the INFJ forum a lot lately, and I feel a very strong connection to what a lot of INFJ's (or percieved INFJ's) here state. So much so that I am considering xNFJ for my personality type.
But that's not the point of this thread. I just wanted to throw that out there and let you guys be the judge of whether I'm actually E or I based on the scenario I'm about to tell (since this is a counseling thread right?).
Any who,
The problem is, my parent is very manipulative, to a point where they want to control me (my present and my future). I also feel like they have no respect for my opinions, and outlooks on what I want. In short, they are extremely selfish, they believe that by controlling me they will see the results that they want, and ultimately benefit from them. I feel like I am just a tool to their end. And I am not okay with that, and I'm scared of what may happen if I rebel, and say no. I have sacrificed so much of my life for their 'vision', have gone through so much pain and sadness, in order to please them. And it is all disregarded, as if they aren't pleased until I am completely obliterated.
How much time, and energy will it take until they realize that I am not a material, a means to end? I literally hate them. I have no other feelings but hostility towards them, and the most ironic thing, they know. And don't care, they are stubborn, as long as I accomplish what they want, it doesn't matter what happens to me, what I go through, how I suffer.
I just don't know how to deal and respond. And I would like some advice, I don't want to put too much detail on this post (due to my paranoia and trust issues) so if this is very general, I apologize.