Authority issues - Can't stand if someone dominates strongly. It might be that I feel the strong behavior unfair before the unfairness even happens, but yes, it often does. I have left couple of jobs just because I have been abused or so I at least felt (and still feel). I also often feel fear towards authorities and might rebel.
Mind Race - I have an hard time to fall asleep at nights, but I don't have a disturbing sleeping problem (even tough I used to). I usually think about the past or the future or events that has or will never happen. Often anxiety related - the reason why I can't fall in to sleep fast.
Practical and aggressive - When I'm doing my work with others I'm willing to take the lead. I usually wan't things to go my way because I know how to do them. I tend to get anxious if I don't know what to do.
Rules - I like to play by the book and I want that others will do. I'm always at time and I do my job and I do it well, so I expect that others will too.
Arbiter - I have been identified even when I was a child to be an arbiter for others. I like harmony and peace, but I like moderate action too.
When I was a child - I hated being touched. I didn't participate any of the physical games or other activities. Now days I aint so jumpy about it and think if someone is doing something physical that it is a way to show caring (like tap on back).
Greed - I often tend to eat too much, drink too much, exercise too much, read too much or too much of anything. Usually I shop too much because of my poor impulse ability.
Appearance - I usually like wearing black and my style is personally rock-ish, but not too strong. There once was a time that I wanted to drown in the crowd; cutted my long hair and took my piercings away. I've looked many ways: goth, rock, long hair, bald, "normal", black hair, blond hair, dreadlocks, tattoos. But ironically I don't like to be noticed about them. I have a need to be personal but I don't want to get to defend myself about my appearance.
Childhood - My father is probably an type 8. He is strong minded - "do it my way or the highway" kind of guy and very negative too. We fought a lot when I was a teenager. Now we're doing fine. My mother is probably a type 2. Always caring mother Theresa type. Loving and gentle who would also help you even when you wouldn't like that. Highly annoying for me sometimes.
Trusting - I give a lot to a peoples whom I trust, but it takes time for me to trust. I am not untrusting people, but I am not giving my all because I just don't feel that I know them. I always give a change to get to know me.
Self exploration - I've been interested from self-help books since my first down pressing event in my life. I read and buy much books. I'm also very impatient and wouldn't want to wait for anything - so I buy what I want almost always and do what I want almost always.
The list in my mind - I have these obsessed things that I have had to do in my life. Just to try them at least. I greatly feared to do them too but I had to do them anyway: Motorcycling, acting in a play, working in a audio studio, getting rid of fear of bees, etc. Big things for me and in a way when I did them: extremely exciting in a bad or a good way.
Sixth sense - I tend to know people, their motivations and hidden messages. Sometimes I could write a book about a person even when we've just saw. There is a deep spiritual side in me which sometimes feels superficially holy.
I have been in therapy and they made me enneagram test there last autumn. I scored most to be an enneagram type 8. That is the type I can most relate to. I went there about ten times before the test. Then I wrote couple of threads to this forum and I heard about counter phobic 6. I've read many books which doesn't explain this kind of subtype at all. I tought naively that enneagrams were all the same and simple, but where there is people, there never is "simple"..
I also find out about the core believes from the book "Deep Coaching" which should implicate the root of which type you are. I can relate most of to the type 8 but I am sceptical. However this book doesn't explain nothing about the counter phobic 6.
The three most describing words that I would give myself are:
Impatient
Aggressive
Deep
All help is greatly appreciated. I tried to give as much info as I can that is most relevant in my life. I will tell more if there comes something in my mind. Thank you.
Mind Race - I have an hard time to fall asleep at nights, but I don't have a disturbing sleeping problem (even tough I used to). I usually think about the past or the future or events that has or will never happen. Often anxiety related - the reason why I can't fall in to sleep fast.
Practical and aggressive - When I'm doing my work with others I'm willing to take the lead. I usually wan't things to go my way because I know how to do them. I tend to get anxious if I don't know what to do.
Rules - I like to play by the book and I want that others will do. I'm always at time and I do my job and I do it well, so I expect that others will too.
Arbiter - I have been identified even when I was a child to be an arbiter for others. I like harmony and peace, but I like moderate action too.
When I was a child - I hated being touched. I didn't participate any of the physical games or other activities. Now days I aint so jumpy about it and think if someone is doing something physical that it is a way to show caring (like tap on back).
Greed - I often tend to eat too much, drink too much, exercise too much, read too much or too much of anything. Usually I shop too much because of my poor impulse ability.
Appearance - I usually like wearing black and my style is personally rock-ish, but not too strong. There once was a time that I wanted to drown in the crowd; cutted my long hair and took my piercings away. I've looked many ways: goth, rock, long hair, bald, "normal", black hair, blond hair, dreadlocks, tattoos. But ironically I don't like to be noticed about them. I have a need to be personal but I don't want to get to defend myself about my appearance.
Childhood - My father is probably an type 8. He is strong minded - "do it my way or the highway" kind of guy and very negative too. We fought a lot when I was a teenager. Now we're doing fine. My mother is probably a type 2. Always caring mother Theresa type. Loving and gentle who would also help you even when you wouldn't like that. Highly annoying for me sometimes.
Trusting - I give a lot to a peoples whom I trust, but it takes time for me to trust. I am not untrusting people, but I am not giving my all because I just don't feel that I know them. I always give a change to get to know me.
Self exploration - I've been interested from self-help books since my first down pressing event in my life. I read and buy much books. I'm also very impatient and wouldn't want to wait for anything - so I buy what I want almost always and do what I want almost always.
The list in my mind - I have these obsessed things that I have had to do in my life. Just to try them at least. I greatly feared to do them too but I had to do them anyway: Motorcycling, acting in a play, working in a audio studio, getting rid of fear of bees, etc. Big things for me and in a way when I did them: extremely exciting in a bad or a good way.
Sixth sense - I tend to know people, their motivations and hidden messages. Sometimes I could write a book about a person even when we've just saw. There is a deep spiritual side in me which sometimes feels superficially holy.
I have been in therapy and they made me enneagram test there last autumn. I scored most to be an enneagram type 8. That is the type I can most relate to. I went there about ten times before the test. Then I wrote couple of threads to this forum and I heard about counter phobic 6. I've read many books which doesn't explain this kind of subtype at all. I tought naively that enneagrams were all the same and simple, but where there is people, there never is "simple"..
I also find out about the core believes from the book "Deep Coaching" which should implicate the root of which type you are. I can relate most of to the type 8 but I am sceptical. However this book doesn't explain nothing about the counter phobic 6.
The three most describing words that I would give myself are:
Impatient
Aggressive
Deep
All help is greatly appreciated. I tried to give as much info as I can that is most relevant in my life. I will tell more if there comes something in my mind. Thank you.
