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Okadokes..
Lately... I've been feeling really lonely.. unwanted.. and guilty..
I try to distract myself through babysitting, working around the house, playing with my little brother..
and my friends are usually a big part of my over wanting emotions.
But lately.. seems like my friends are trying to avoid me.. i don't wanna say my whole family crap and everything.. but myfriends are my EVERYTHING.. and i try so hard to make time for them, be there for them and stuff..
Just when it comes down to it.. either they don't make time for me.. they don't even invite me to do things with them anymore and truly i don't know what i did wrong
I stay positive with them.. i do as much as possible for them..
and it seems like they don't even care what i do for them..
it's really really destroying me inside.. if you had any idea how important friends are with me..
Also.. How can i help my sister that's on bipolar.. that's 19 and pregent.. off her meication, very sad.. moodswingy.. and she's my older sister and i kinda wanna be there for her much as possible.. ican just see her so lost..
my mom doesn't help much with this..cause she's still trying to figure things out... and i want to help SOO BAD but i can't cause..she refuses to let anyone in.. so only i understand our family problems kind of deal..
But i don't want to make her feel lost and hopeless and she can't take care of herself..
how can i approach her by being a kid? when she acts like a kid? i dont want to make her feel like a bad parent...
I dont think there is really any advice to give to that stuff.. cause i didn't say much or go in much detail.. but for what you smart people know.. what can i do?
How can i help?
I'm doing as much possible to keep me upbeated but i feel lost? why do i feel lost?
i'm kinda losing it i think
well.. i promise i'm usually not a reck like this.. this stuff is so small and usually i can hold things together so freakin well!! what is wrong with me?

Lately... I've been feeling really lonely.. unwanted.. and guilty..
I try to distract myself through babysitting, working around the house, playing with my little brother..
and my friends are usually a big part of my over wanting emotions.
But lately.. seems like my friends are trying to avoid me.. i don't wanna say my whole family crap and everything.. but myfriends are my EVERYTHING.. and i try so hard to make time for them, be there for them and stuff..
Just when it comes down to it.. either they don't make time for me.. they don't even invite me to do things with them anymore and truly i don't know what i did wrong
I stay positive with them.. i do as much as possible for them..
and it seems like they don't even care what i do for them..
it's really really destroying me inside.. if you had any idea how important friends are with me..
Also.. How can i help my sister that's on bipolar.. that's 19 and pregent.. off her meication, very sad.. moodswingy.. and she's my older sister and i kinda wanna be there for her much as possible.. ican just see her so lost..
my mom doesn't help much with this..cause she's still trying to figure things out... and i want to help SOO BAD but i can't cause..she refuses to let anyone in.. so only i understand our family problems kind of deal..
But i don't want to make her feel lost and hopeless and she can't take care of herself..
how can i approach her by being a kid? when she acts like a kid? i dont want to make her feel like a bad parent...
I dont think there is really any advice to give to that stuff.. cause i didn't say much or go in much detail.. but for what you smart people know.. what can i do?
How can i help?
I'm doing as much possible to keep me upbeated but i feel lost? why do i feel lost?
i'm kinda losing it i think