When I lay down at night to sleep I experience overwhelming feelings of dread, doubt, unworthiness, acute emotional pain attached to past lovers, emptiness, and longing.
These are not just thoughts banging around in my head, they are whole body experiences, the most notable being my torso is going to collape and my heart explode.
I honestly contemplate suicide to avoid this time of day, I dont believe I would actually suicide, however It feels like non existance would be preferrable. It is fucking awfull, like walking naked into a dark forest crawling with hungry demons. I get so scared.Any suggestions?????
These are not just thoughts banging around in my head, they are whole body experiences, the most notable being my torso is going to collape and my heart explode.
I honestly contemplate suicide to avoid this time of day, I dont believe I would actually suicide, however It feels like non existance would be preferrable. It is fucking awfull, like walking naked into a dark forest crawling with hungry demons. I get so scared.Any suggestions?????