Let me start by really describing myself as a person. Growing up, I was always the kid getting picked on. I was always terrible at sports, chunky and out of shape. I was always picked because I was a bit weird and different. I was always getting called a wimp, wuss, p*ssy, along those lines. It was something I really hated, and I found myself jealous of the all star jocks and really hating the way I look. My senior year I really had enough, and I really wanted to change myself and prove that I was alot tougher mentally than people thought. I joined the school's wrestling team and 6 months later, I dropped 90 pounds and earned a varsity spot on the team. I started lifting weights and exercising,and I kind of shifted my lifestyle towards a more athletic one. Ever since then I feel like my identity has really changed. From growing up always being picked on, to a 200+ pound athlete, sometimes I really find myself hiding myself behind my appearance for fear of looking weak. That softness is still there, but when I still have some deep seated aggression towards the type of people I grew up with. I can honestly say right now that if I were to be treated now as I was then, I'd have no problem beating the crap out of the person, and the same can be said if I were to witness someone being picked on like that. I've been told more than a few times by people that before they get to know me, I seem like the typical macho guy stereotype. Then they tell me I'm completely different than what they would have ever imagined. That my appearance contradicts my personality. My question is this; are there many infps like this? Is it a common thing to be very guarded and intimidating to onlookers for fear of being hurt?