[hydrogen]

In two weeks, school ends and then I have the summer holidays - or, in other words, what feels like a void of nothingness in which my life will have no purpose or meaning.

Normally, the summer holidays are six weeks long. I end up feeling really lonely during the six week holidays, because all I have to do is read or go on the Internet or try and take up some other hobby to fill my days. The only contact with my friends that I have is by texts, and I think last summer, I only sent about 20 of them. One summer holiday, it got so bad that I felt like life was pointless and I'd just be so much better off if I just fell to sleep and never woke up (pathetic, I know...).
Now they're extended even longer and I have nobody to meet up with (because all my friends will be on holiday/doing interesting things) and I won't get a job because the few vacancies there are are in shops... and just gah. Three months of being stuck at home feeling entirely self-piteous and useless.
You know what makes it worse? That every few days for the past few weeks I have had this ridiculous fleeting notion pass my mind that this summer will be that stereotypically amazing summer that all teenagers go on about - you know, sitting on tops of hills at sunset with some sort of boyfriend (how that thought even managed to materialise in my mind, I don't know - I don't think anyone has ever thought of me in that way), passing days on the beach with my friends (heck, I don't even live near a beach!), visiting a ton of historic castles with my family and/or friends... The reality is, it's not going to be like that. Summer never has been like that for me. I dread summer. I always have done.

So, if you haven't read that ramble above (and I don't blame you if that's the case) - what did you do when school was over for the summer/what will you do? I need some inspiration for things to do and/or reassurance that I'm not the only one who never has any plans.

 

[Psychosmurf]

That's life for you. It doesn't have a plot like a story does.

What have you considered doing so far?

 

[hydrogen]

Ah wow, in that case I better start getting used to life, and fast! Hmm well, I haven't planned anything specific. Just little things like read some non-fiction books in preparation for next year's studies, and I have this knitted jumper project that I started a few months ago and have abandoned for a while. I just don't feel like I have a lot of things to do to fill all that time with >_< Thanks for the reply

 

[Sayonara]

I rarely ever had plans for summer, even moreso once I started high school.

What you have planned sounds good to me actually. Even if it may not seem like much, the fact that you're accomplishing stuff must feel good to an extent. How old are you? If you're in high school or college, maybe you can look up some summer classes at your local college to kill some time. Maybe volunteer? o:

I hope your summer turns out better than your past ones. D:

 

[CrabbyPaws]

For me, this is what is so appealing about summer. Finally a time to relax and do nothing! Stay up till however late I want, and sleep however late I want. I get to spend time with family, draw, write, paint, sit on top of hills (on my own) and finally have time to just breathe and enjoy life. Just observe it for a second.
I do hear you, near the end, I feel so ready to start doing things but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate the summer. The reason I also love summer is because I naturally go in a happy mood when the sun is out, even if it isn't boiling (I'm in Scotland).
I think perhaps you just need to change your perception of it, use your imagination to be creative. Socialising shouldn't be the only way you stimulate your brain cells, try to find what stirrs things for you internally, try to appreciate the little things you have. And that fantasy summer romance thing is rarely ever real. If you do want to hang out with friends, just ask them to hang out, if not you can make new friends. One thing I'm looking forward to this summer is learning to drive... maybe you could find something new to learn? How about read a book? Get a sun tan? Take up a new hobby by giving yourself the 6 weeks to explore yourself and find out more about what you love. If you are tired of being alone, why don't you volunteer somewhere?
Summer is full of never-ending possibilities, don't let the idea that you actually have to get up and look for it put you off. If you choose to spend your time on the laptop or in your room alone, that is your decision, but there is a whole world out there. Discover it, and you will find what there is to do.

 

[Narrator]

Get a job volunteering - you could even get a couple, check online/in charity shops. Depending on how much money you have, you could join a club, or go on holiday somewhere cheap. Search for places to visit for day trips. Try cooking unusual recipies. Find some pretty walks, bring a book, or a sketch pad. Get a computer game.

Why can't you do things like visiting historic castles, or something else with family/friends? You could make it into a big event so everyone comes to visit/you visit them.

 

[Mick Beth]

Why not pick up an instrument or learn a new language?

 

[hydrogen]

Thanks for the replies - you've all given me so much motivation! To be honest, I didn't think that making this topic would actually make me feel any happier, but it really has.
I guess the key thing is just for me to keep setting little goals for myself over the next few months, purely because it's that aimless feeling that I hate.

So yup... thanks

 

[DarkyNWO]

Just do stuff that you've always wanted to do! For instance summer is an awesome time to work on your body and getting a better physique! And yeah, learn an instrument, how to sing, how to dance, a new language! Try italian or french? Maybe you could take up a hobby. Parkour, mountain climbing, maybe do some parachuting? Learn to drive a motorcycle and just have fun offroads if you live in a foresty area. Make new friends! Paint all the lampposts in your area pink!! Paint miniatures, learn how a car engine works! Learn how to steer a boat! Learn how to write poetry! Life is full of things to do and learn! You just have to find them!

Good luck on your adventures!