I have always had intense dreams. I have always felt like my dreams are trying to tell me something. Three times in my life I have had dreams that has felt like a prophecy or prediction of future. It has made me unable to live normally after.
After those dreams, I had never ever felt so emotionally disconnected from other people and the world. And never had I ever felt like I could see Earth so clearly as then. I was standing on the ground, yet I was seeing Earth from the universal perspective, I saw Earth circling around, moving, slowly, yet it went so fast. And I was moving with it, it felt like time was passing so fast for me but so slow for everybody else. No one seemed to notice. After those dreams, I could not function properly. I couldn't eat, I couldn't talk to people. Whenever someone spoke to me, I felt like I couldn't understand them. I did not feel physically uncomfortable, I just felt some kind of eternal calmness. Eternal peace. I did not react to anything.
After that part, I finally woke up and felt deep sadness for Earth, humanity and animals. I felt like I had to save humans and animals, but I was unable to. I wanted to tell someone what I felt, but I felt like no one would ever, ever, ever understand. When I looked at someone or heard them talk, I felt like kissing their face and holding them close to me. I felt like comforting everyone, as if they were all doomed to die or suffer.
In one of the dreams, someone spoke to me form out of nowhere. It was not the voice of a person, an animal, any creature - just.. a voice of nature.
In one of the dreams, humans were using humans. I knew they were the same humans, but they used the other humans.
In one of the dreams, an animal was showing me Earth and was "teaching me" about Earth and the universe.
I won't tell the entire dreams, but I know they mean something. What is weird about my dreams is that I have flied in almost every dream I can remember ever since I was little. I often wake up nosebleeding in the middle of the night and I feel like the nosebleeding is connected to flying or dreaming dreams that causes intense emotional reactions. I nosebleed everytime I start crying and I cry very often, every week for no obvious reasons. Sometimes I feel like I am doomed to be physically alive because I feel like I do not need to be physically alive at all. I only need to exist, I only need to exist as a soul, thoughts and emotions, nothing else. Physical body and physical needs are not needed. Knowing that I am physically existing is making me sad and feeling hopeless. It is not about wanting to die because "my life sucks" - absolutely not, I have a family, I have found the love of my life - but it is about not wanting to have a physical presence as it feels limiting and unnecessary. Being physically present seems like the only way to communicate with the love of my life and my family, but I have a feeling that if I physically leave, I will be able to contact them in dreams or mentally some way. But it scares me so much, yet I want it more than anything. Life and death is just like an ocean swirling and flowing into each other and they mix up and.. they are just the same. Life exists everywhere and it finds different ways of existing. I want to live in another way.
I don't know where I want with this. Does anyone else feel these things?
After those dreams, I had never ever felt so emotionally disconnected from other people and the world. And never had I ever felt like I could see Earth so clearly as then. I was standing on the ground, yet I was seeing Earth from the universal perspective, I saw Earth circling around, moving, slowly, yet it went so fast. And I was moving with it, it felt like time was passing so fast for me but so slow for everybody else. No one seemed to notice. After those dreams, I could not function properly. I couldn't eat, I couldn't talk to people. Whenever someone spoke to me, I felt like I couldn't understand them. I did not feel physically uncomfortable, I just felt some kind of eternal calmness. Eternal peace. I did not react to anything.
After that part, I finally woke up and felt deep sadness for Earth, humanity and animals. I felt like I had to save humans and animals, but I was unable to. I wanted to tell someone what I felt, but I felt like no one would ever, ever, ever understand. When I looked at someone or heard them talk, I felt like kissing their face and holding them close to me. I felt like comforting everyone, as if they were all doomed to die or suffer.
In one of the dreams, someone spoke to me form out of nowhere. It was not the voice of a person, an animal, any creature - just.. a voice of nature.
In one of the dreams, humans were using humans. I knew they were the same humans, but they used the other humans.
In one of the dreams, an animal was showing me Earth and was "teaching me" about Earth and the universe.
I won't tell the entire dreams, but I know they mean something. What is weird about my dreams is that I have flied in almost every dream I can remember ever since I was little. I often wake up nosebleeding in the middle of the night and I feel like the nosebleeding is connected to flying or dreaming dreams that causes intense emotional reactions. I nosebleed everytime I start crying and I cry very often, every week for no obvious reasons. Sometimes I feel like I am doomed to be physically alive because I feel like I do not need to be physically alive at all. I only need to exist, I only need to exist as a soul, thoughts and emotions, nothing else. Physical body and physical needs are not needed. Knowing that I am physically existing is making me sad and feeling hopeless. It is not about wanting to die because "my life sucks" - absolutely not, I have a family, I have found the love of my life - but it is about not wanting to have a physical presence as it feels limiting and unnecessary. Being physically present seems like the only way to communicate with the love of my life and my family, but I have a feeling that if I physically leave, I will be able to contact them in dreams or mentally some way. But it scares me so much, yet I want it more than anything. Life and death is just like an ocean swirling and flowing into each other and they mix up and.. they are just the same. Life exists everywhere and it finds different ways of existing. I want to live in another way.
I don't know where I want with this. Does anyone else feel these things?