The dark side isn't necessary unhappy, it's more of a peaceful guarded place that is reserved just for you. When i think of the dark side it makes me feel like my mind is completely opened, no sugar, no ideals, more reality. The dark side lets me see things more objectively , because it feels like my emotions abandon me leaving me more realistic. Sometimes i make better decisions, see things from a completely different perspective. I feel sharper intellectually because all things that are blinding me from this sometimes delusional reality are much clearer and deeper. . It also puts things into perspective about things i love or dislike about myself, it brings me closer to the truth about things/people and circumstances. I don't fear the dark side, it feels very much at home for me when working through my complexities.What do you mean by "the complexity of life?"
From what I see, you avoid thinking about unhappy topics because they make you unhappy, naturally, but I guess sometimes you have to think about them. Then you should try to deal with the issue at least somewhat objectively, which I suppose is as difficult for you as it is for me to be in touch with and sort through my feelings. I can do it, but I hate it and it scares me a little bit. I'm working on that.