Okay, I know I JUST POSTED THIS EXACT POST in a thread started here
but I was just curious to know if you guys are like this. I had an "Aha!" moment today. I figured something out. I have "layers" kind of like the Earth's crust. Or an onion. Or a couch cushion. Or a flower...
The outer layer is my warm, bubbly, faker than Snooki's tan side. That is the small talk, the shallow compliments, the "Hey, I like your hair," the fake smile, the actions that are comfortable to me, the "Make everyone laugh!" moments, etc. This is the side that I am the nicest, fakest, and I usually show this to people I don't know well to make myself comfortable in the situation.
Face expression: :tongue:
The next layer is my colder monotoneish side. That is where I basically just develop sarcastic, cold things to say while out of it in a conversation. This is usually when I'm tired, sad, etc. This is where I'm in a terrible mood and I appear to be a whole different type.
Face expression: :dry:
The near-middle is my gut, my weird suspicions of people that ends in telling myself to shut up, my having a connection to a person without even knowing them. IE I can totally read people and I just rant about it, throwing out random thoughts about how they could be, if I like them, what they're thinking, etc... This is the side that I don't show to anyone.
Then, you have my true self. This is the side that usually I do show. This is the courage, standing up for injustice, getting things together, making a difference, not caring what others think of me, staying true to myself, etc. This is the view I use when I write stories, poetry, draw, etc. This is where I can paint a picture and think of what meaning it has to me. This is where I think about how I can change the world. This is where I stand up for myself. This is where I go all motivational speaker on people because I just talk and talk and TALK about things I think of. This is the part where I analyze myself to the point of confusing myself. This is the part where I just totally rip everything apart basically.
Face expression: (there's none to describe it)