I've been trying to figure out my heart center for my enneagram tritype. I know for sure that my first fix is 5w6 and second fix is 1w9, but I'm unsure whether I'm a 3w4 or 4w5. Enneagram 3 is relatable because, I always need to be either impressive to others or successful for my self esteem to be intact. I am incredibly ambitious, but not at hard worker in the slightest and a very lazy at the same time lol. Another 3 trait I relate to is my sense of not having an identity, I don't really have any interests besides intellectual ones, most of my goals come from accomplishing goals. Also I'm very introverted, but very assertive when arguing with someone. Furthermore, I wouldn't say I'm socially awkward, but rather emotionally unresponsive to others. I can usually charm individuals when first meeting them, but it drains a lot of my energy. Being the best at something motivates me, but I'm not that values winning above all else. I want to go down in the history books, but at the same time I don't like getting a lot of attention from people. Enneagram 4 is relatable because, I am introspective and brooding, but I don't think I'm really that creative or artistically expressive. The whole reason I got into mbti, socionics, and enneagram was for self discovery and to figure out who I was in a sense. This could stem from the fact that I don't really have a self, that I can cling onto. Unlike enneagram 4 types, I am never dramatic or emotionally demonstrative. The whole reason I got into mbti, socionics, and enneagram was for self discovery and to figure out who I was in a sense. This could stem from the fact that I don't really have a self, that I can cling onto. I'm not proud of this, but sometimes I feel the need to tell white lies about myself, but I don't know if its because I want to seem more impressive or unique. Also when I read the tritype descriptions for 513 and 514, I don't really relate to either. 513's are described as being incredibly hardworking, but like I stated earlier, I'm very lazy and unmotivated generally. It could just be because I suffer from social anxiety,depression, and that enneagram type 5w6 is my main type. Sorry for the Te ramble lol! Thanks!