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1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
Success? That to me is making a substantial difference for humankind.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
The above. To leave the world a better place than as I came in.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
Hurting people? Oppressing people? Being part of the problem as opposed to the solution.
I used to be a communist, by choice, theoretical compatibility with what I believed was the right thing to do. I think fairness is an extremely important value to me, fairness of treatment, opportunity, etc.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Making mistakes inadvertently. Seems like weakness to me, and the only way to achieve what I want is to be strong.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I'd like people to see me as fair and reliable. I see myself as in a really shitty phase, possibly disintegration. Misunderstood to the extreme and very vulnerable. Unworthy of people's attention.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
Being in a fulfilling relationship, intellectually, emotionally and sexually.
Fucking up.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) I tend to exteriorize it. Used to play basketball in school and anger pretty much improved my game. Same goes for intellectual pursuits. Anger makes me rise up to the challenge.
b) Shame is crippling. Specially when I believe I did something bad, I have a tendency to retreat and either think it through or try to cope with it.
c) I try to get busy with something
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a) I can think clearly under stress
b) I enjoy it
c) As long as I'm not in the wrong it is not at all a problem to me. I have a tendency of thinking i'm wrong frequently though.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a) Question it almost instinctively. Have been accused of emanating it. Respond negatively.
b) Drawn to it. Respond positively.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
Varies according with my mood. Often think humanity is shit or something that makes life worth it.
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
Fiance broke up with me. Tried to reverse the situation, and went down burning bridges and fighting with her in all sorts of ways. Spent a long time brooding and being depressed.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I can trust a select few entirely. I actually trust people more than i'm given trust, and that often creates uneven relationships and places me in unconfortable situations.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
a) I'm obstinate. If I put something in my mind I can chase it relentlessly. I crossed the Atlantic and changed my entire life for that fiance, giving up virtually everything for what I thought would be happyness. I'm very good with argumentation. I can spin any argument in my favor and win an audience. I'm creative, giving, a pragmatic idealist. I can take a lot more than most people.
b) I'm stuck in a rut for years and I can't get out of it. Can't function as a person. Relationships, university, professionally. Have a tendency of creating unnecessary trouble. Have a tendency of doing the worst possible thing at the worst possible moment to self sabotage.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
Their capacity. I have a knack for discovering talent in people they themselves can't see. Foreseeing future events. People's actions, processes, etc. I'm usually right about that kind of stuff.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
Depends on their approach. If I think they're deliberately trying to insult me I usually get back at them in some way. Either ignoring and making the person know I think i'm above playing the game or pointing out some bad aspect of the person in question. If I think I did something wrong I just stand there and take the beating as a form of self punishment.
With compliments, I smile politely and do not pay much attention to what they said, although being secretly pleased.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
a) My brain. I think it's really a beautiful machine.
b) A significant other. I kind of crave for intimacy.
Success? That to me is making a substantial difference for humankind.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
The above. To leave the world a better place than as I came in.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
Hurting people? Oppressing people? Being part of the problem as opposed to the solution.
I used to be a communist, by choice, theoretical compatibility with what I believed was the right thing to do. I think fairness is an extremely important value to me, fairness of treatment, opportunity, etc.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Making mistakes inadvertently. Seems like weakness to me, and the only way to achieve what I want is to be strong.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I'd like people to see me as fair and reliable. I see myself as in a really shitty phase, possibly disintegration. Misunderstood to the extreme and very vulnerable. Unworthy of people's attention.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
Being in a fulfilling relationship, intellectually, emotionally and sexually.
Fucking up.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) I tend to exteriorize it. Used to play basketball in school and anger pretty much improved my game. Same goes for intellectual pursuits. Anger makes me rise up to the challenge.
b) Shame is crippling. Specially when I believe I did something bad, I have a tendency to retreat and either think it through or try to cope with it.
c) I try to get busy with something
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a) I can think clearly under stress
b) I enjoy it
c) As long as I'm not in the wrong it is not at all a problem to me. I have a tendency of thinking i'm wrong frequently though.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a) Question it almost instinctively. Have been accused of emanating it. Respond negatively.
b) Drawn to it. Respond positively.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
Varies according with my mood. Often think humanity is shit or something that makes life worth it.
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
Fiance broke up with me. Tried to reverse the situation, and went down burning bridges and fighting with her in all sorts of ways. Spent a long time brooding and being depressed.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I can trust a select few entirely. I actually trust people more than i'm given trust, and that often creates uneven relationships and places me in unconfortable situations.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
a) I'm obstinate. If I put something in my mind I can chase it relentlessly. I crossed the Atlantic and changed my entire life for that fiance, giving up virtually everything for what I thought would be happyness. I'm very good with argumentation. I can spin any argument in my favor and win an audience. I'm creative, giving, a pragmatic idealist. I can take a lot more than most people.
b) I'm stuck in a rut for years and I can't get out of it. Can't function as a person. Relationships, university, professionally. Have a tendency of creating unnecessary trouble. Have a tendency of doing the worst possible thing at the worst possible moment to self sabotage.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
Their capacity. I have a knack for discovering talent in people they themselves can't see. Foreseeing future events. People's actions, processes, etc. I'm usually right about that kind of stuff.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
Depends on their approach. If I think they're deliberately trying to insult me I usually get back at them in some way. Either ignoring and making the person know I think i'm above playing the game or pointing out some bad aspect of the person in question. If I think I did something wrong I just stand there and take the beating as a form of self punishment.
With compliments, I smile politely and do not pay much attention to what they said, although being secretly pleased.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
a) My brain. I think it's really a beautiful machine.
b) A significant other. I kind of crave for intimacy.