Hi, I know this post is old, but maybe it's still valid. You never know! We are/were in a similar situation then. I was bullied for a large part of my childhood for being 'different' and standing out from the crowd, because I am noticeable. I have this thing, where I really want others to like me, yet I am unwilling and unable to conform to others' expectations of me. Personal integrity is an important value. However, due to all the bullying and all the judging, where the judging is filtering through to my adult life as well, I thought I was an introvert for very very long too. There was always someone louder, cooler, more loved to take all the attention away from me and if I don't have any attention when going out, I don't need to be there at all. Often, I would leave without saying my good-byes and then secretly sulk, because I believe no one ever noticed I was gone or cared. Unfortunately, depression isn't only something I tend to suffer, I have both parents on Zoloft, where in my father's family, clinical depression ran rampant. My luck is that I suffer it in bouts, not continually...Hi everyone. I'm new to mbti and I thought I was an introvert but I think I might actually be an ESFP. As a kid I was full of life and crazy. When I started to get older I would get bullied by others at school since I always drew attention to myself. The bullying lasted all the way until the end of high school. That changed how I behaved a lot. I became very shy and cautious around people. Even up to today it's a struggle between the person I've become and the person I really am on the inside. I'm wondering if any ESFPs can relate?
I've been seeing a therapist for quite awhile and that has helped. Hopefully I can go back to being my playful childish self someday.
(...)Activities that do help people in your similar situation are meditation and exercise. Meditation would help with self-discovery—finding yourself again and exercise would tire you out so you wouldn't spend time worrying excessively, which I believe is an issue for you. Just really believe in yourself as a capable person and you should find yourself once again. Stay strong and peace be with you.
@marcguasch is right, what he recommends is helpful. For me, sports, activity and meditation help me stay in check and positive. Also, it helps to put yourself out there. Some people won't like you, but at the same time, if you aren't yourself, there's no way the right kind of people will spot you either.