I just recently started learning about the Enneagram, and discovered I'm a 4. I've been reading up on it, and came across statements about 4's often creating a fantasy version of themselves, and I nearly started crying... "...cultivating a Fantasy Self—an idealized self-image which is built up primarily in their imaginations." This is something I've been doing forever, and while it brings me comfort, I also feel some guilt and shame about it. I know people are complex and dynamic, and no one thing can easily explain them, and I have a sense of other facets of my life that are playing into this. But I had never seen the way I inwardly create an overly idealized, often far-fetched version of myself and my life described so keenly. I was hoping to talk about this more with other 4's.