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From Hermann Hesse - Steppenwolf

In this connection one thing more must be said. There are a good many people of the same kind as
Harry. Many artists are of his kind. These persons all have two souls, two beings within them. There is
God and the devil in them; the mother's blood and the father's; [...] Men of every kind have their characteristics, their features, their virtues and vices and their deadly sins.
Prowling about at night was one of the Steppenwolf's favorite tendencies. The morning was a wretched
time of day for him. He feared it and it never brought him any good. On no morning of his life had he ever
been in good spirits nor done any good before midday, nor ever had a happy idea, nor devised any
pleasure for himself or others. By degrees during the afternoon he warmed and became alive, and only
towards evening, on his good days, was he productive, active and, sometimes, aglow with joy. With this
was bound up his need for loneliness and independence. There was never a man with a deeper and more
passionate craving for independence than he. In his youth when he was poor and had difficulty in earning
his bread, he preferred to go hungry and in torn clothes rather than endanger his narrow limit of
independence. He never sold himself for money or an easy life or to women or to those in power; and
had thrown away a hundred times what in the world's eyes was his advantage and happiness in order to
safeguard his liberty. No prospect was more hateful and distasteful to him than that he should have to go
to an office and conform to daily and yearly routine and obey others. He hated all kinds of offices,
governmental or commercial, as he hated death, and his worst nightmare was confinement in barracks.
He contrived, often at great sacrifice, to avoid all such predicaments. It was here that his strength and his
virtue rested. On this point he could neither be bent nor bribed. Here his character was firm and
indeflectable. Only, through this virtue, he was bound the closer to his destiny of suffering. It happened to
him as it does to all; what he strove for with the deepest and most stubborn instinct of his being fell to his
lot, but more than is good for men. In the beginning his dream and his happiness, in the end it was his
bitter fate. The man of power is ruined by power, the man of money by money, the submissive man by
subservience, the pleasure seeker by pleasure. He achieved his aim. He was ever more independent. He
took orders from no man and ordered his ways to suit no man. Independently and alone, he decided
what to do and to leave undone. For every strong man attains to that which a genuine impulse bids him
seek. But in the midst of the freedom he had attained Harry suddenly became aware that his freedom
was a death and that he stood alone. The world in an uncanny fashion left him in peace. Other men
concerned him no longer. He was not even concerned about himself. He began to suffocate slowly in the
more and more rarefied atmosphere of remoteness and solitude. For now it was his wish no longer, nor
his aim, to be alone and independent, but rather his lot and his sentence. The magic wish had been
fulfilled and could not be cancelled, and it was no good now to open his arms with longing and goodwill
to welcome the bonds of society. People left him alone now. It was not, however, that he was an object of hatred and repugnance. On the contrary, he had many friends. A great many people liked him. But itwas no more than sympathy and friendliness. He received invitations, presents, pleasant letters; but no
more. No one came near to him. There was no link left, and no one could have had any part in his life
even had anyone wished it. For the air of lonely men surrounded him now, a still atmosphere in which the
world around him slipped away, leaving him incapable of relationship, an atmosphere against which
neither will nor longing availed. This was one of the significant earmarks of his life.
This is a part of the general description, I can identify and see how this progress may become true for me..

Can you identify? What can we do to stop this developing? Should we?
 
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