4w3:
I actually mistyped as a 4 when I first got into the enneagram. I've always been on a quest for finding my true self, which is evinced in the introspective journals I have kept since middle school. I cling to my label of "weird" because I think weirdness makes me stand out from other people, and I have always felt that I am different. When I come across people who say they're weirder than me, I sometimes engage in a "weirdo" pissing contest :laughing: When asked to describe myself, I try to make myself look unique. I'm extremely idealistic. This, of course, goes along with 9w1 as well. Sentimentality creeps up on me a lot, though I'm pretty good at hiding it. I can go from very excited to withdrawn, and I often have periods of melancholy when I need to be alone.
The 3 wing fits me more than the 5 because I have a lot of ambition. I set very high goals for myself, and I take measures to reach those goals. I have a tendency to be two-faced, though I have gotten better at integrating who I really am with who I show the people around me. I can be competitive in areas that matter to me, and I'm definitely competitive in games. I can also be very outgoing, and I enjoy interacting and connecting with other people.
The reason why I don't think I'm dominant 4w3 is because 9 will trump 4 when it comes to primary motivation. My compassion, a 4 trait, is limited. I'm not as passionate about causes as a 4 would be. I may become stubborn when I think I'm right, but passion is certainly not one of my distinctive qualities. I usually beat myself up when things don't go the way I wanted or expected them to. I try to analyze my actions to figure out what it is that I did wrong, while at the same time making excuses for the other person. If I'm not mistaken, a 4 would more likely blame the other person.
Also, I should probably add that I'm sx/sp.
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6w7 to come. I don't have time to do more than that at the moment.
