I'm a 20 year old ISFP college student, and this past year, I don't know why, but I have felt hopelessly bored and lazy. It's like every time I do work really hard to achieve a purpose or goal that I become passionate about and truly want for myself, and then fail, I go into an apathetic and avoidant Se mode and stop caring or trying. Last year, I was really getting my heart set on vocal performance, but then I didn't nail the audition, just as I feared I wouldn't, and stop caring. The past isn't something that I actively obsess over, like an Si type, but rejection really does bug me. Thus, I will go online, get caught up in stupid fictional fandoms, stop trying in school, and feel hopelessly numb and empty. I want to care about school, but I don't know how to when I seem to have no purpose, and walk around like a zombie. Even things like music, writing, and English that I once so enjoyed seem to be passing interests that I'm no longer so passionate about.