Negative things too. But I have yet to know why they are. Why? Because she's 20 years older than me? Because she lives in a different state? Because she's the first woman I've had, so therefore I must be too stupid and naïve to know what's good for me? Why can't they be happy that I actually have her? The only painful thing is that I don't always get to see her. But I really doubt someone just as good is gonna jump out of nowhere in my own city. That's never happened before, and I'm already 42.