I lie- NO don't leave! Please recompense the amount of precious time I wasted on this pretty please with an emoticon on top? :blushed:
Below here is going to be 'srs bznes' unfortunately.
0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
I'm 16, male. It's patent to me that I suffer from depression. I'm also not much of a contributer to forums, so this is beyond my comfort zone. My current level of lethargy may also influence the quality of these responses, so I'm being extra careful that I express myself coherently while remaining as natural as I deem natural to be.
1. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it.
Can't paste. The picture is a lake surrounded by pine trees with a mountain in the background. The atmosphere is quite cloudy and grey; makes me imagine a chilly atmosphere, especially with that mountain. I surmise the location must be up north. Overall, not a location I'd want to be in minus the solitary and quiet ambiance it presents; though, a bit too remote for my tastes.
2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
I must be a rabid fan if I were to actually bring myself to do that. Assuming this is the case and that I really wanted to go, my internal reaction by the time I'm aware would be: "Why now of all times!? Why!? I should have saw this coming!" Or some variation of that (depends on my energy level and when the performance starts in respect to our distance or how much unfortunate events happened consecutively beforehand, etc.). Externally depends on how comfortable I am expressing myself to the people surrounding me. Assuming they wanted to go to the destination as well, I'd let them voice their reaction before voicing mine. I'd liably voice a more reduced and apathetic version of my internal reaction. If I'm not comfortable, I'd just stay quiet and wait for someone else to handle the problem.
3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I dislike parties, so I'd likely want to go home. If the driver is someone I'm comfortable with, I'd voice my thoughts in the form of a question. If not, well, I'd just passively tolerate.
4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
It's hard to think of a time where I really snapped in this type of situation. I'd just take it in stride, support my beliefs (not necessarily defend), and hope the other party doesn't blow anything out of proportion. Of course, this is assuming he/she is actually a friend. If not, it may vary... don't feel like elaborating.
5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
Well not everything is going to exist according to my values. I'll just explain off a context that would probably elicit a more notable reaction. Supposing I'd died and experienced what was apparently an after-life, then resurfaced to the living world and thought somehow that this was irrefutable evidence of it (sorry if I keep stressing the possibilities)...I'd be amazed, bewildered, enthralled, bla at the notion that we can never truely be sure about what is true about some things in this universe. What would I do? Who knows?
I experience things that clash with my experiences and habits on a daily basis, actually. They come in the form of humans. I just tolerate them.
6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
Hm...
Rationality, growth, relationships, honesty, indiviuality, creativity, passion, tolerance, humility, originality, intelligence, talent, understanding, beauty, open-mindedness, ...
Some traits are ones that are important to me personally. Others are what I wish more of the population would possess, me included, as it would make the world a better place... at least to me.
Obviously one's personality is mutable, and their values along with it. My values can change as I continue to develop.
7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else?
I'm a social anomaly... where do I start? Quiet is probably what I'm most associated with by people who don't know me. Comparing myself to the quintessential 16 year old, I'm distinguished as: nonconformist, misanthropic, depressive, analytical, independent, thoughtful, quirky, disconnected, inhibited, original, well-behaved, loner, calm, vapid, understanding, socially awkward, considerate, ...
b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
I want to be more talkative. Easily one of my weakest points, improving this will improve my confidence, which is salubrious to my equilibrium.
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
I listen to them, generally. They usually detect possible adversity.
9. a) What activities energize you most?
Playing a musical instrument, sleeping, succeeding in doing something uncomfortable, talking with a close friend, doing something creative, playing a new and exciting video game, attempting to motivate myself, trying something new, experiencing something auspicious out of the blue, ...
b) What activities drain you most? Why?
Activities which are physically demanding - I have minimal energy reserves.
Going to school - I don't think explaining this is necessary.
Trying to meet deadlines - I want some liberty for f sake.
Being around people I hate - because I hate them.
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
I don't use ostentatious words to avoid sounding pretentious. I avoid voicing a divergent opinion if I think the other party can't handle it. I don't share what random shit I've learned because it may give the impression that I'm either a boastful smart-ass or an insecure, superficial moron (unless people ask me for an answer). I try not to show negative emotion because I don't want people thinking I have a problem. I tend to repress a lot to strangers, since well, I'm introverted.
This has been vexing me for a while now; serious gratitude for anyone willing to help me out.
