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Hello. I've been browsing PersonalityCafe for a while now, ever since I found out that I'm a massively uncommon female INTP personality type who always wondered why everything and everyone seemed to be far-fetched and utterly insane. Coming onto this site and reading about other INTPs has made me understand a myriad of things about myself and why certain aspects of life, for me, have been really hard to grasp.
For starters, I have an acutely under-developed emotional response system. I fail to pick up human-traits like sarcasm, jokes, pranks, humour, and other..."people stuff". I have social anxiety caused by information overload, and don't function well with other people - although strangely they seek my presence because, apparently, I'm a good listener and reasoner. I think I would be utterly alone if it weren't for that, haha. For the life of me I cannot follow a simple rule without being massively distracted by the many subtle flaws the "rules" present - and then spend all my energies trying to outsmart it. This makes anyone who works with me angry. I'm also late for everything and the concept of time mind-boggles me.
I have lots of personality quirks that I have read from other INTPs that relate to my own, which is great! I'm glad I'm not the only one out there who fails to react to things in conventional ways. For example, a mate's friend dies and I give a random fact about the purpose of coffins and some Black Plague trivia. I get confused about why I have to say "sorry (for your loss?)" when people die. I don't quite know why people need to say that? I still don't. I understand it's polite, but it seems like a conversation killer. My Grandfather died recently and many people said it to me, and it still made no sense. Then, later, I think they say it because they're actually a superhero and they feel awful that they didn't save him in time, so they show up to the funeral as their civilian alter-ego and apologise. I don't know, haha. Smiling about that thought, though, is being impolite.
I have no fears, and no phobias - I don't quite understand why people can fear something to the point of never wanting to experience it. But fear is good, because I have crashed and been bitten so many times that I wish I had some sort of prejudice against things before I venture off to touch them. I also get the urge to jump off high places, but that can't just be me. I am suspicious to the point of paranoia, especially about humans, the world's most erratically insane species (and I count myself as part of that populace). I'd like to know how many other INTPs feel about fear and paranoia?
I have countless pointless abilities I taught myself. Like writing/drawing with both hands simultaneously, forwards, backwards, upside down. I tell people that I do it because it "tickles my brain" (and it does, haha). I play the violin, cello, piano and guitar, pretty good.
And, lastly, I live in Australia. The land of socialites, but with plenty of space - thankfully.
Thanks for reading all this garbage!
For starters, I have an acutely under-developed emotional response system. I fail to pick up human-traits like sarcasm, jokes, pranks, humour, and other..."people stuff". I have social anxiety caused by information overload, and don't function well with other people - although strangely they seek my presence because, apparently, I'm a good listener and reasoner. I think I would be utterly alone if it weren't for that, haha. For the life of me I cannot follow a simple rule without being massively distracted by the many subtle flaws the "rules" present - and then spend all my energies trying to outsmart it. This makes anyone who works with me angry. I'm also late for everything and the concept of time mind-boggles me.
I have lots of personality quirks that I have read from other INTPs that relate to my own, which is great! I'm glad I'm not the only one out there who fails to react to things in conventional ways. For example, a mate's friend dies and I give a random fact about the purpose of coffins and some Black Plague trivia. I get confused about why I have to say "sorry (for your loss?)" when people die. I don't quite know why people need to say that? I still don't. I understand it's polite, but it seems like a conversation killer. My Grandfather died recently and many people said it to me, and it still made no sense. Then, later, I think they say it because they're actually a superhero and they feel awful that they didn't save him in time, so they show up to the funeral as their civilian alter-ego and apologise. I don't know, haha. Smiling about that thought, though, is being impolite.
I have no fears, and no phobias - I don't quite understand why people can fear something to the point of never wanting to experience it. But fear is good, because I have crashed and been bitten so many times that I wish I had some sort of prejudice against things before I venture off to touch them. I also get the urge to jump off high places, but that can't just be me. I am suspicious to the point of paranoia, especially about humans, the world's most erratically insane species (and I count myself as part of that populace). I'd like to know how many other INTPs feel about fear and paranoia?
I have countless pointless abilities I taught myself. Like writing/drawing with both hands simultaneously, forwards, backwards, upside down. I tell people that I do it because it "tickles my brain" (and it does, haha). I play the violin, cello, piano and guitar, pretty good.
And, lastly, I live in Australia. The land of socialites, but with plenty of space - thankfully.
Thanks for reading all this garbage!
