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I had two awful dreams that were so vivid and real, and i still remember one spcific scene from each of the dreams that is still shaking me up. I had one dream, woke up, turned off my alarm and went back to sleep. Had another dream, woke up and here I am. I feel so shaken up that I feel i need to write about it.
First dream - i was raped by two people i apparently knew in the dream. I don't recognize them, but in the dream, i apparently knew them. and they knew each other, and i was at some huge modernist mansion. and i was in a very clean, simple and modern bedroom, which looked exactly like my dream house. i felt so betrayed and vulnerable, because i didn't know why this was happening to me by these people. the scene that stood out to me most vividly was after the first one happened, i was feeling so vulnerable and shaken up while i was by myself (thinking it was over and how i was going to get out of here), and the second person took me by the wrist and i remember feeling crushed and broken and afraid of what was going to happen. most of the dream was THAT moment, but i don't remember much about what happened. the guys did not look familiar to me at all, but i think.. the second guy resembled the INTJ i have a crush on? it mustve been a really younger version of him because i didn't recognize him in the dream but i just had a familiar feeling it was him or smething
Second dream - i think it is connected? but i cant tell if i was just internalizing all of my feelings from the first dream. it seemed like this dream happened at a time after the rape, and i was trying to pretend things were okay. i was at another mansion, where there was a huge dinner party with important guests and i was nervous about not being able to have anyone to talk to. i was paying attention a lot to the waiters who were getting all the food ready and making sure things were in place. when the dinner started, i found a seat by some girls i know, they seem so familiar and they vaguely resembled people i know IRL, and started talking about shallow stuff, a guy they liked, makeup, and then one girl was telling me how she was going to manipulate her mom to buy her a car. all of a sudden, i felt sick and excused myself and ran to the bathroom. i remember i went through a maze like place to find the bathroom, and it looked like a dungeon (that has occurred in my dreams before) with stalls in it. i knew other girls were there cause i had a glimpse of people in the stalls. In the stall next to mine, i saw an old woman dressed in a gray plaid suite (yellow shirt) walk out of the stall while the girl inside was crying. and i remember feeling extremely struck by this scene for some reason. when i got into my stall, i started vomiting uncontrollably, and there was blood in the toilet when i looked. and i kept vomitting until I woke up.
This happened two hours ago when i woke up, but i'm still feeling shaken up. my heart is still pounding rapidly and i have that deep, sinking feeling in my stomach again (something bad is going to happen?) I looked up VOMIT in dream interpretations and it said that it meant 1) i need to get rid of negative feelings/thoughts that are impeding my emotional progress or 2) you are getting sick, or you will be connected with a rumor or potentially scandalous situation. I think it might be #2 just because i have that deep sinking feeling in my stomach. overall, i dont know why, but im feeling so shaken up and emotionally gripped right now. no one else is home, or in my hall because there is a brunch event i didn't go to, but i feel so shaken up and i just need to talk about this or hear a voice of reason telling me things are okay. all of a sudden, i'm afraid of opening up to this INTJ guy further or even talking to him more and i'm just feeling really cautious right now. sorry for the long post guys
First dream - i was raped by two people i apparently knew in the dream. I don't recognize them, but in the dream, i apparently knew them. and they knew each other, and i was at some huge modernist mansion. and i was in a very clean, simple and modern bedroom, which looked exactly like my dream house. i felt so betrayed and vulnerable, because i didn't know why this was happening to me by these people. the scene that stood out to me most vividly was after the first one happened, i was feeling so vulnerable and shaken up while i was by myself (thinking it was over and how i was going to get out of here), and the second person took me by the wrist and i remember feeling crushed and broken and afraid of what was going to happen. most of the dream was THAT moment, but i don't remember much about what happened. the guys did not look familiar to me at all, but i think.. the second guy resembled the INTJ i have a crush on? it mustve been a really younger version of him because i didn't recognize him in the dream but i just had a familiar feeling it was him or smething
Second dream - i think it is connected? but i cant tell if i was just internalizing all of my feelings from the first dream. it seemed like this dream happened at a time after the rape, and i was trying to pretend things were okay. i was at another mansion, where there was a huge dinner party with important guests and i was nervous about not being able to have anyone to talk to. i was paying attention a lot to the waiters who were getting all the food ready and making sure things were in place. when the dinner started, i found a seat by some girls i know, they seem so familiar and they vaguely resembled people i know IRL, and started talking about shallow stuff, a guy they liked, makeup, and then one girl was telling me how she was going to manipulate her mom to buy her a car. all of a sudden, i felt sick and excused myself and ran to the bathroom. i remember i went through a maze like place to find the bathroom, and it looked like a dungeon (that has occurred in my dreams before) with stalls in it. i knew other girls were there cause i had a glimpse of people in the stalls. In the stall next to mine, i saw an old woman dressed in a gray plaid suite (yellow shirt) walk out of the stall while the girl inside was crying. and i remember feeling extremely struck by this scene for some reason. when i got into my stall, i started vomiting uncontrollably, and there was blood in the toilet when i looked. and i kept vomitting until I woke up.
This happened two hours ago when i woke up, but i'm still feeling shaken up. my heart is still pounding rapidly and i have that deep, sinking feeling in my stomach again (something bad is going to happen?) I looked up VOMIT in dream interpretations and it said that it meant 1) i need to get rid of negative feelings/thoughts that are impeding my emotional progress or 2) you are getting sick, or you will be connected with a rumor or potentially scandalous situation. I think it might be #2 just because i have that deep sinking feeling in my stomach. overall, i dont know why, but im feeling so shaken up and emotionally gripped right now. no one else is home, or in my hall because there is a brunch event i didn't go to, but i feel so shaken up and i just need to talk about this or hear a voice of reason telling me things are okay. all of a sudden, i'm afraid of opening up to this INTJ guy further or even talking to him more and i'm just feeling really cautious right now. sorry for the long post guys
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