Well, my decisions have been causing me a lot of pain and confusion. I know where I am headed, but it's too soon to tell if it will be beneficial.
I can just see your eyes looking across that 'Ocean' you felt lost in a while back - and onto a new horizon! You have found Land! When I found 'Land' I thought, wow, I'm home free - all will be well, and I'll start to loose some uncertainty. But with this loss of uncertainty, there is a new mountain! How much am I willing to sacrifice to attain the dream that I have envisioned? And looking at the heaps of things I need to do, it almost seems like a larger mountain! But you can do it! Just STOP thinking and DO - that is what a friend told me. Just close your eyes and jump in. It sounds like stupid advice, until you physically do it. So your planning process it seems has happened already? Just now, go with, you've made a decision - if it makes you feel better - plan some alternatives to your plan, to fall back on, and just go for it! Tell us all what happens!
I think there are mini phases in which persons feel that 'loss of self' because with each change and transition there is like a death and re-birth type feeling. many people aren't even bold enough to face what needs to be done! but you are INFJ and should not be afraid, light and darkness is familiar to all of our paths I think, and there is no turning back, once you set that 'desire' in your heart to attain your dream, even if you have to venture off into deeper unknowns. You can do it, erterwert! Get someone objective that has your best interests in mind, or even better, really focus and hear what your inner voice is telling you, or seek some sort of guidance, from wherever, but if you persist, there will be answers.
But I feel just getting started, regardless of the pain and confusion you are feeling, is better than not venturing and taking steps towards your dreams, you can always change direction, but if you don't set forth the momentum, you may remain miserable and stagnant longer. Best of luck - and we want reports! tee hee