Incident 1: I tried my best to lend him some small money to clear a debt. The amount was not what he wanted, and he ignored me passing me each time, and later accused me of showing sympathy. This is unfair.
Incident 2: I signed up and studied for a tough property exam, guess what, the government announced last week that we need to sell 30 property on top of passing the exam to get our licenses.
Incdent 3: I start to feel god made a very big sacrifices for us. Instead of being like us, he has to watch us from on top. He gets nothing, except lotsa problem from human everyday. We get 'released' but he can't. This is so unfair too.
Incident 4: I told my colleague that she should be doing activity X rather than activity Y at the golden hours. it is obvious that she is wrong. She yelled back, and made me felt real guilty confrtonting her.
Incdent 5: I got paid the least (sales commission type) compared to them (fixed fat salary) every month, while i got to work hard for more deal to feed them. Instead of grattitude, I am shown no respect.
Incident 6: I was diagnosed wtih Diabetic with no apparent reason. And i got to jap myself 4 times a day. Why?
Incdent 7: I was supposed to sign a new business contract, but he just says he want to reconsider.
Incident 8: A Taxi driver hit my car from the side, he extorted for some money, but i refused. I made a police report, but later my insurance company says they had to pay him because the photos shows I'm in the minor road. I clarify he was on the illegal road, but the final photo of the taxi show him in an angle what is really bias. I insisted that is scam and we are going to court.
Incident 9: When i tell my gf about the unlucky and unfair things happening to me, but she was more in her 'own world' and logic, with her iphone and computer most of the time, rather than seeing what's wrong with me.
Finally, I exploded on Friday, but but but, my gf didnt return my sms.
Then,
Incident 9: My mum said my gf complained i had been very fierce to her.
It sound all like im winding here.
I'm crazy. I hope I'm doing well (and everything is fine) before i really crack.
>> MaggieRooWho, how do i get that developed thinging?
Your 'totally honest' logic seems like an alternative. And Im thinking about the 'radical turth' program.
I just did an online test, I am enneatype 8, the challenger top of page
Eights are self-confident, strong, and assertive. Protective, resourceful, straight-talking, and decisive, but can also be ego-centric and domineering. Eights feel they must control their environment, especially people, sometimes becoming confrontational and intimidating. Eights typically have problems with their tempers and with allowing themselves to be vulnerable. At their Best: self- mastering, they use their strength to improve others' lives, becoming heroic, magnanimous, and inspiring. Key Motivations: Want to be self-reliant, to prove their strength and resist weakness, to be important in their world, to dominate the environment, and to stay in control of their situation.
Tomorrow's going back to work, and Im feeling reserved and scared of more unlucky things waiting for me.
Jk
