Thank you both for sharing.
DANGER: Incoming wall of text!
The more I reflect, the more INFP resonates with me. From what I've read, Ni is the perceiving function that sounds the most foreign to me.
The reason I think this has been tricky for me is that I've been cultivating my Se over the past two to three years. Some combination of being drawn to appreciate the present moment when exposed to nature, occasional meditation, and consciously forcing myself to become present when I catch myself getting too caught up in my thoughts about future possibilities / what might be.
My first instinct tends to be looking
beyond what's presented on the surface, to see what the surface object reminds me of - drawing connections between my observation of an object with seemingly unrelated topics or thoughts that I had been considering, and gleaning some new insight about those thoughts or topics.
The only example of the above I can think of at the moment happened three weeks ago, after I broke out of a
vicious mental cycle of self-loathing. As I mention in my post there, as I was walking down the street on the way to grab lunch one day at work, I stumbled upon two guys talking about an upcoming fight (perhaps MMA or wrestling - I don't follow either). They were disagreeing about who they think would win the fight, and they kept escalating, neither one of them willing to back down, until they were more or less yelling at one another. This scene reminded me of the mental sh*tstorm I had recently escaped from, and after making the parallel between the two, I couldn't help but burst out laughing at how silly my dilemma looked in comparison, reflecting upon it after the fact.
IMO, it's the not the best example, because it doesn't convey quite what I mean, but I can't think of any better examples right now, so it'll have to do.
I'm also aware that I've been much more emotional than normal the few couple weeks, which most likely influenced my prior cognitive function and MBTI tests. During that time frame, I noticed that I was much more likely to a) choose an answer within 3 seconds or less, based on my gut feeling, and b) that I tended to pick more "extreme" answers (1 or 5, rather than 2-4). I read somewhere that, generally speaking, people tend to pick the more moderate/in-between answers (e.g. "Somewhat Agree") when answering quizzes, rather than the extreme options ("Very Strongly/Completely Agree"). For all I know, I might have been intentionally (yet subconsciously) picking the extreme options more often just to spite that tendency and go against convention.
Also, I find it interesting that the recent
left-brain/right-brain quiz I completed pegged me as 49% left brain, 51% right brain. I was assuming that one side of my brain "should be" largely dominant. However, the nearly 50-50 result feels right. I'm not sure I can think of any examples, nor express it, but I do feel like I have a decent balance of both sides of my brain - like I can be either or.