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So, I have a problem. I learned about MBTI in the beginning of this year and was initially shocked after reading the accuracy of the profile. I was amazed! I felt understood for once in my life, like I wasn't crazy after all. But as time has gone by I've found myself constantly questioning what my type is and I can't seem to stop. Over and over again I continuously question and test myself (like seeing if I think like an ENFP is supposed to think in life). I feel like I'm obsessed with it and I can't seem to get it out of my head. I also can't help but compare myself to other people and over analyze everything I think and do to what I see them doing, comparing their personalities to mine to see if I'm really an ENFP. I am doing this all the time. When I was younger, and even earlier in my high school career, the way my mind worked was without a doubt extroverted intuition. I would switch subjects with the drop of a hat, constantly forget things, and my writing was pretty great, even in sixth grade. I remember saying "People think I'm random, but I can tell them exactly how I reached the new topic" and saying "I adapt to every person I am talking to" even before I knew MBTI existed. Even now I can read peoples feelings like reading a Dr. Seuss book and my friends tell me it's amazing how I know exactly what they're feeling even before they really understand it. All of the people I associate with are sensors and like an ENFP I've adapted my personality to best suit theirs. I've also grown up in a very religious family in which I've had to live a double life with my friends vs what my family expects of me, which is a very conservative (they're Jehovah's Witnesses by the way).I can't talk to them and answer questions I have because I know I'll get biased answers so it's ultimately a waste of time. For so many years I have wanted to be popular and hang out with the cool crowd to party and experience things but I feel like I've had to tone down and change so much of myself, which has left me feeling distant and alone from everyone else, not saying that its because I'm for sure intuitive, just saying. I feel like whenever I think I am constantly thinking about if I'm an enfp or not and whenever I even make an intuitive jump its ruined by the thought of being and enfp and it clouds my whole mind all the time. I feel like I am losing myself at this point and I've felt like this before, in the sense of losing my identity. I don't know who I am anymore. Are these enfp traits or am I just imagining them. Is this obsession inferior si, help.
I know I've written a novel here but please take the time to read or skim whateva
I know I've written a novel here but please take the time to read or skim whateva