1. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.

I'm under stress for the last 10-11 months.

Current state of mind: somewhat foggy
Sex: male
Age: early 30s

2. What type(s) do you usually score as on tests?

INFP and INFJ. I got ISFJ once, and ENFJ three times.

I and F are clear in the results but I'm not so sure anymore I'm an Introvert.

N is usually 0-15% more than S.

J is 0-15% more than P.

It's the keys2cognition test that gave the ENFJ result.

3. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Choose 2 photos and look at each for as long as you feel that you need. Copy and paste the photos here (or write the link like example: www[dot]flickr[dot]com/photos/jacoboson/8697480741/in/explore-2013-05-01), and write your impression of each of them.

Oh, so many pictures to choose from! So many pictures of cuteness, but I'll pick this one:

Incoming!! *Explored* | Flickr - Photo Sharing!

A decisive moment of action. The eagle has very clear look in his eyes (what he wants) and he uses all his assets (wings, claws, speed, force), all his being to achieve his goal. No holding back.

Great picture. I got energized!

I remember seeing two pictures to choose from, a landscape and girl with cupcake. I really liked that landscape. Oh well.

4. You are on the clock to fix something, a friend of yours sits beside you and gives a lot of interesting ideas, none of them actually help or are related to your situation, but they are still something you find interesting. What is your reaction? What do you say? What do you do? What's your train of thought?

Depends on the pressure. I would either leave the work and sit with my friend to talk (and perhaps leave the site/building) or tell them to leave me alone to fix this thing. The second choice would make me sad. The first fits me better. I would evaluate the cost of leaving work would have on my life and the life of others. If the fix was important and crucial for a lot of people, I might ask my friend to offer opinions on the fix or leave me.

If I wasn't so worried or stressed (in general and at that time), I *might* use their idea to see the problem from a different perspective. How their suggestions are related to what I have in front of me. You know, see things differently. This also depends on their verbosity. If they got blabby I would fall back to the first solution. Or I might use them as a distraction from my work to take a break and then return. Breaks freshen the mind.

5a. What are some of your most important values?

Integrity. Truthfulness. Sincerity. Independence. Autonomy. Freedom of thought. They all produce courage.

These are probably the ones I want right now. They change from time to time.

5b. Can they change? What would be the reason if they changed?

Perhaps I could compromise some of them so as not to hurt someone. But it is a tough decision. Take truth for example. I would probably ask them: "do you want to know the truth even if it hurts you?"

I compromise my values if I feel insecure, or afraid of the cost. This can happen in the face of physical violence (the mob), social pressure (least likely), peer presure (less likely), or authority figures that can actually "bite" (e.g. police officers).

6. You are in a car with some other people, the people in the car are talking. Someone makes a claim that you see as immoral/rude/cruel. What is your inward reaction? What do you think? What do you say?

Depends on the energy level, my calmness (not stressed) and how involved I'm with the group. If I was depleted of energy, I wouldn't notice it. Or I might notice it but not say anything.

If I had enough energy to be present in the moment, it would make me furious and I would want to do something about it. If I didn't had enough energy to do something or I wasn't close with the group I would probably isolate, keep a distance, or simply ask to get out of the car.

If the claim was against someone inside the car, I would try to correct it as a way of defending the other person. I know I probably defend my opinions/values though :tongue: The other person might not care. If I realize this, I will also ask the other person "how does that seem to you?".

If the claim was against someone who is not present but I personally know, I would tell the offender that they should have the courage to tell themselves instead of spreading their vitriol while the other person is away. That's because I would take it as a way of manipulation towards the rest in the car. If the claim was against humanity, I would go full nuclear on them To hell with the car, and with the rest. Don't wanna be close to that guy.

If I'm calm enough I will tell the other person that I find this immoral/rude/cruel and tell them why. I will probably trace it back to one of my values, desires, and opinions. I will make it clear that this is my position, and not some global thing. I will take it 'global' if I see how his behavior effects us all. For example: hate generates hate.

And if I'm really really calm (talking about nearly-nirvana state here) and I really understood what this is all about, I might dig deeper into them and see why they're saying what they're saying. See behind the words and behind rationalizations. And lead them to discover this themselves.

There are 6 paragraphs in this answer and each one of them is each one of the stages of my well-ness. However, the last stage might be unhealthy for interpersonal relationships because I practically stand 'outside' of the relationship.

7. a) What activities energizes you the most? Why?

These times, meeting with friends. What I miss more is human contact.

When I get that, and have the energy reserves, I will ponder about human nature. Go deep and understand. So that I can find this simple solution to our miserable way of living. And then apply it.

Exploring my ideas, fantasies, and when I discover something, I come back to others and tell them about it. It usually doesn't generate a lot of steam beyond the moment, so next time I want to do this, I will make a little piece of art to demonstrate that to others.

I've done this once. I failed :tongue: I've pondered about doing it again in grand scale, but didn't went with it. It required too much work for my energy reserves.

7. b) What activities drains you the most? Why?

Being alone for long periods of time. Involuntary solitude.

Being with people that I can't connected with. This doesn't mind me if I know that when I leave this group of people, I will go and meet my real friends :wink:

Not being able to do the things I enjoy, which revolve around experiencing and exploring my self better, and discovering.

Not being able to make plans for the future. I already have desired plans for my future but they are in stalemate due to a situation I'm in. However, I don't know if my laziness will stop me once I'm out of that situation :tongue:

Being in loud environments. I usually wear earplugs inside the city.

Being in loud parties with lots of people I don't know. I just search for a corner to simply observe the rest and then get bored easily and wonder when the rest are so crazy about :tongue: Although I might go 'crazy' (or in something of a 'rage' mode) and become loud (maybe yelling), over expressive, gregarious, and obnoxious. Just for a few minutes. You know, show them that I actually *CAN* do that if I want to.

8. Do you believe you are introverted or extraverted? Why do you believe that? (Please be as detailed as possible)

I really don't know.

I always thought of myself as an introvert because I enjoyed time alone and never had lots of friends. In my childhood I went for one special friend (later this striked me as clingy). I guess that's me being a lone child and all.

As of late, I'm entertaining the thought of being an extrovert. That would be a surprise!

I talk to myself a lot. Imagine that there is a person there. I do both dialogues :tongue:

I swear, I'm not crazy. Niether am I. :tongue:

Sometimes I say "goodbye" to cashiers just to feel human contact but it somehow drains my energy.

9. Please describe yourself, what do you see as your greatest strengths and what do you see as your greatest weaknesses?

--Strengths--

I'll go back and bring from memory the other two times I was asked this question. My two strengths are my capacity for emotional intensity (this probably screams Fi), and my search for that simple idea that will change the world.

If I stay on the present I'll saaaay...
- Analytical.
- Can "consume" the situation (take information in) and make a plan of action.
- Want to be prepared for different outcomes.
- I think I can see how an operation (organization, company) will fit inside it's environment.
- I believe I can coordinate people to achieve a task, and operate at the same time in a personal* and technical** level. Unless I have interference or inner-fighting. I hate those!

(*) Personal level: Show respect for the other person's personality and ways. See their value and use it. Unite them in their differences. Give praise. Make them feel like a team. Trust them. Give them responsibilities. Help them discover something about themselves through work.

(**) Technical level: What can be done and how best to do it.


--Weaknesses for me--
- I hold back my anger. #1 issue. And when it comes it, it explodes. I haven't killed anyone. Yet :tongue:
- Despise and afraid of authority. I usually have the nerve or the calmness to stand up.
- Very frequently depleted of energy.
- Sometimes I get lost in the details.
- My emotions aren't always clear to me and thus I don't know what I want from a situation.
- I tend to go against, or even suppress my instinct on a situation and people. I've paid the price every time. Me=idiot for this.
- I frequently stay with people and situations that don't please me (fear of loneliness) and it drains my energy.


--Complains I have received--

- Sometimes I turn into a 'robot mode'. I don't express feelings. Probably when I'm anxious or when I try to manage something (that's the complaint of a dominant Se friend).
- In art projects I've directed, I've given commands to people "do it like this!". Too bossy. Since then, I've mended my ways.
- I'm too programmed. I plan a lot. Even in situations where it's not useful :tongue: Maybe I try to manage stress for the unknown.


10. Please describe yourself when you are feeling stressed. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.

In order of appearance:

Chronic stress (months or more) gives me physical symptoms. Like teeth grinding, shallow breath, intestine annoyances, and so on.

I get easily pissed at everything!

I want my way and no other way!

I get Derealization.

I get foggy. Can't "see" clearly feelings and facts. Can't understand other people easily so any social interactions become meaningless or a liability.

I lose motivation to do things.

I feel easily tired.

In more accute stress, I get phobias about my health and I'm afraid of death.


11. What is your "soft spot" (the area that makes you upset if people mess with)?

My softest spot is depreciation. Hits the "not worth" button. To fight that inner feeling, I turn to logic: "what this guy said made you feel depreciated, it's not him, it's me". Then I tell them what their comment was all about: "you comment is based on depreciation".

Insensitivity and insult.

Bad manners. To me, it means disrespect.

I get angry or annoyed by manipulation (e.g. lying, emotional tricks). It violates truthfulness.



12. What are most of the ideas/thoughts you get generally centered around (try to expand your answers as much as possible)?

Depends on my energy reserves.

How to be better (get well, develop myself). How to understand myself better. How to understand other people better - the human nature.

How unsatisfied (and pissed) I am with society and man and how it can be improved. And after that, how can I see the bigger truth.

How to feel and experience the true side/meaning of Eros (sex and romance).

An older feat was to construct one unifying theory that will explain everything. I've abandoned that.

But wait! I have a goofy side too! I start projects that are funny by being incoherent, goofy, farcial, or just plain stupid! This is where I'm having the most fun!

13. What's your opinion of getting frequent feedback on what you do? (Someone pointing out what is good, what is bad, what and how to improve) Is there a limit to how often you want feedback? If so, what is the limit?

I don't like that. It seems criticism to me. However, what I understand that I will have to listen is something like "We need something better than the results you're bringing us. Would you like to discuss how we can improve that?". Or even better: "Hey, you're doing great work. Wanna hear how to make it even better?".

Baaah! I'm too sensitive to criticism!

I guess it's part of the job of the manager/coordinator to see what person is appropriate for a job.

14. Anything beyond what has been discussed that you would like to add?

I'm certain that I answered this again, I would answer the questions differently. Similarly but differently.

This was filed in one pass but I did additions and clarifications in subsequent passes.

Wondering if I'm unconsciously answering these questions to rig the result, or if I actually imagined a version of me as I was answering. I sound agressive but I have a lovable hippie somewhere inside me :kitteh:

Oh, almost forgot, I'm prone to OCD, and Elvis lives!