I want to thank you. This made my day whole much better.Ah, I don't have the means to answer to your question. But I offer one small piece of advice.
One can only find out what he seeks after he searches for it. If you don't know what you're looking for in life, maybe it's time to start to look for anything, and maybe you'll find your thing. In my life, I learned that you have to try and make some mistakes before you can finally know yourself. I had to make some choices, and these choices defined who I am and what I want to be.
Maybe you should try it.