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Hello - this'll be my first post here. I've been scouring Google for some info about how the stackings manifest for people, generally and for each type - and now I'm not sure about my own stacking. I know likely that I have 4w5, with the sexual instinct as highest priority. Inside me, I have this sort of lust for intensity and intimacy; I feel this.. pull in me when I find something or someone nice (where my own insides have this electric jolt, anticipation and that yearning to be fulfilled), and I do get envious, say when I find other people who have that sort of connection beyond my reach. "Damnit," I say inside, "if only there were some good people for me too, who I can share myself with.. interesting people who aren't just Joe-Q-Average."
But.. I don't know what happens with my following two instincts, which I've been looking across resources for. People seem to get more ambiguous when describing the secondary and last instincts, and I'm not sure. For example, that instinctual strengths stuff, describing 'fireside' and 'darkside' stackings-- it mentions drawing upon the strength of a shadow stacking.. an sx/sp would draw from so/sx, and the line just blurs between what is your blindspot.
Or that stackings can manifest so differently between types: you'd expect an sx/so of any other type to be very flamboyant and off the rails, but for 4w5, being withdrawn, how does this show up? The Ocean-Moonshine descriptions:
"This is a very volatile type. They are driven to form connections but have very high demands of their partners. When their powerful fantasies don’t match reality, they become very restless." -- sx/sp, or
"This subtype is able to connect with others and with life itself, but always with an undertone of volatility and a tendency to dramatize" -- sx/so.
I look, and none of these two descriptions just ring out to me over the other. Not helping is that there are so very few examples of 4w5 sx/so exemplars, compared with the 4w5 sx/sp chicos of yender yore, that I can look at.
The first time I tested, it says I have 4 SP and 5 SX - alright, but SP, seeming more uptight and conservative than the other variants due to health and home issues, that doesn't sound much like me. Even though I like drinking tea to keep cleansed and energised - even though I want a familiar place to withdraw to, I don't really believe that one's home ought to consume you more than just keeping it a goodly place to live. (I like tinkering with electronics though, to get the most out of them.) Then a spreadsheet test asking questions, I got sx and sp as priorities respectively. Alright, that seems more like it. The sudden question comes up when I wonder about my ruminations on the people around me (besides people I know), on society, and the occasional wrenching feeling of getting humiliated from earlier memories - and the urge to lash back at them. When I considered this, and thinking that the sx/so seems much cooler to be than that sx/sp (for the writing style and unfettered energies) -- I retook the tests, and got sx and soc.. though I wonder if this is just shift of bias on my part.
How might I tell which one I truly am?
But.. I don't know what happens with my following two instincts, which I've been looking across resources for. People seem to get more ambiguous when describing the secondary and last instincts, and I'm not sure. For example, that instinctual strengths stuff, describing 'fireside' and 'darkside' stackings-- it mentions drawing upon the strength of a shadow stacking.. an sx/sp would draw from so/sx, and the line just blurs between what is your blindspot.
Or that stackings can manifest so differently between types: you'd expect an sx/so of any other type to be very flamboyant and off the rails, but for 4w5, being withdrawn, how does this show up? The Ocean-Moonshine descriptions:
"This is a very volatile type. They are driven to form connections but have very high demands of their partners. When their powerful fantasies don’t match reality, they become very restless." -- sx/sp, or
"This subtype is able to connect with others and with life itself, but always with an undertone of volatility and a tendency to dramatize" -- sx/so.
I look, and none of these two descriptions just ring out to me over the other. Not helping is that there are so very few examples of 4w5 sx/so exemplars, compared with the 4w5 sx/sp chicos of yender yore, that I can look at.
The first time I tested, it says I have 4 SP and 5 SX - alright, but SP, seeming more uptight and conservative than the other variants due to health and home issues, that doesn't sound much like me. Even though I like drinking tea to keep cleansed and energised - even though I want a familiar place to withdraw to, I don't really believe that one's home ought to consume you more than just keeping it a goodly place to live. (I like tinkering with electronics though, to get the most out of them.) Then a spreadsheet test asking questions, I got sx and sp as priorities respectively. Alright, that seems more like it. The sudden question comes up when I wonder about my ruminations on the people around me (besides people I know), on society, and the occasional wrenching feeling of getting humiliated from earlier memories - and the urge to lash back at them. When I considered this, and thinking that the sx/so seems much cooler to be than that sx/sp (for the writing style and unfettered energies) -- I retook the tests, and got sx and soc.. though I wonder if this is just shift of bias on my part.
How might I tell which one I truly am?