[Missali]

The story will leave some of you incredulous but it will enlighten a few and If I touch at least just one person then I know I have made a difference my story is moving and yet at times can make you feel as though I am living in a thriller, my story as descended into nightmarish depths that you can't imagine.

It started in 2011 me and my sister were full of hopes and energy we became politicised and devoured left leaning papers such as the guardian however an innocent curiosity led us down the path of conspiracies.


We became fascinated with the dark side whatching videos on the occult and the "Illuminati" it became apparent that my fascination with the "Illuminati" went further than expected of a politicized young adult I came close to rallying protests I sympathised with Muslims suffering abroad and also those at home being oppresses by the governments of the west.

I harbored many home made theories about the Illuminati and governments of the west I was so deeply absorbed that I would make predictions about their next move and was always proved right.


My main concern was with the water and fluoridation in poor areas in England one theory that the government readily admitted under the banner of dental health.

I quickly realised that there was some thing in this and started shopping in areas where there was a larger professional population and not working class. It was at this point that "they" started blocking my Internet browsing and closing the videos I watched.

They then moved onto following me they would follow me in broad daylight taking numerous pictures of me, (this is the part that will leave you incredulous) they then went on to giving me brain damage (through micro-wave energy I think, I've done some research) I was exhausted .

The experience left me frazzled and confused I was on the advise of my mother and sister was taken to the emergency room where the doctor diagnosed me as schizophrenic, they forced me to take pills.

I thought it was innocent but little did I know that the social worker and some of the nurses caring for me worked for this secret society some of them even called me by my Amazon name slyly , which is private and it was impossible to know that other revealed some family secrets to me which was impossible for them to know at the time.

The medication they gave me is giving me accelerated brain damage especially in my frontal lobe, I'm now in a place where I might not be able to go on with my studies because of the extensive brain damage I wouldn't wish this experience on my worst enemy.

They send people on foot talking to me in broad daylight making sly comments.

They tell me to drop out of uni, and they tell me that they will kill me soon, they tell me not to enter society and to become a couch potato, they say singular words like Cull, cauterize, quell all relating to brain damage.

I have restless night contemplating my future and how brain damage they want me to become. Please make a prayer for me as I am suffering extensively and living in misery. No one I tell this to believes me they brush it off as the ranting of a schizophrenic not even my own family.

I hope the Lord hears my prays and stops them.

 

[GurrenZero]

You sound overwhelmed. I personally haven't dug too deep into the occult or secret societies beacuse I have absolutely no influence over those things. The path you're on will get you nowhere but an early grave and a life full of needless frustration. Take a step back and find a more practical way to do good in tthe world. What you're doing clearly isn't benefitting anyone. and making yourself a target isn't good either.

 

[U-80]

You sound like every INFJ I've ever met (granted, I've never met a sane one). Your paranoid delusions give you a sense of purpose. You could walk away from them but you never will. You'd be nothing without them.

I could say get a life, but there's no point. This is the life you've chosen. Enjoy!

 

[John Coltrane]

I've read extensively about the occult & symbolism probably compared with most people I know, its not really for the weak-minded, as in anyone who takes things too literally. I also know people who are also completely obsessed with the illuminati to the point that they place all power outside of themselves. I hope things improve for you soon as you seem pretty fragile at the moment.

 

[Delilah]

Is this a creative writing exercise? If so, it's great, except for the lack of structure.

The story will leave some of you incredulous but it will enlighten a few and If I touch at least just one person then I know I have made a difference my story is moving and yet at times can make you feel as though I am living in a thriller, my story as descended into nightmarish depths that you can't imagine. It started in 2011 me and my sister were full of hopes and energy we became politicised and devoured left leaning papers such as the guardian however an innocent curiosity led us down the path of conspiracies. We became fascinated with the dark side whatching videos on the occult and the "Illuminati" it became apparent that my fascination with the "Illuminati" went further than expected of a politicized young adult I came close to rallying protests I sympathised with Muslims suffering abroad and also those at home being oppresses by the governments of the west. I harbored many home made theories about the Illuminati and governments of the west I was so deeply absorbed that I would make predictions about their next move and was always proved right. My main concern was with the water and fluoridation in poor areas in England one theory that the government readily admitted under the banner of dental health. I quickly realised that there was some thing in this and started shopping in areas where there was a larger professional population and not working class. It was at this point that "they" started blocking my Internet browsing and closing the videos I watched. They then moved onto following me they would follow me in broad daylight taking numerous pictures of me, (this is the part that will leave you incredulous) they then went on to giving me brain damage (through micro-wave energy I think, I've done some research) I was exhausted . The experience left me frazzled and confused I was on the advise of my mother and sister was taken to the emergency room where the doctor diagnosed me as schizophrenic, they forced me to take pills, I thought it was innocent but little did I know that the social worker and some of the nurses caring for me worked for this secret society some of them even called me by my Amazon name slyly , which is private and it was impossible to know that other revealed some family secrets to me which was impossible for them to know at the time. The medication they gave me is giving me accelerated brain damage especially in my frontal lobe, I'm now in a place where I might not be able to go on with my studies because of the extensive brain damage I wouldn't wish this experience on my worst enemy.They send people on foot talking to me in broad daylight making sly comments. They tell me to drop out of uni, and they tell me that they will kill me soon, they tell me not to enter society and to become a couch potato, they say singular words like Cull, cauterize, quell all relating to brain damage. I have restless night contemplating my future and how brain damage they want me to become. Please make a prayer for me as I am suffering extensively and living in misery. No one I tell this to believes me they brush it off as the ranting of a schizophrenic not even my own family. I hope the Lord hears my prays and stops them.

If you are on the off chance serious - You are delusional/having some sort of mental break/episode, and you need help, I hope you get it.

As for this:

You sound like every INFJ I've ever met (granted, I've never met a sane one). Your paranoid delusions give you a sense of purpose. You could walk away from them but you never will. You'd be nothing without them.

I could say get a life, but there's no point. This is the life you've chosen. Enjoy!

 

[Missali]

I'll make note of what your saying but you have to understand that I am certainly experiencing what I say I'm experiencing I want a peaceful life like everyone else If I was looking for a purpose why would I look in a place so emotionally draining. I think you need to re-evaluate your world view and stop talking down to people as if your a specialist in every personality you come across.

 

[Halcyon]

@Delilah The first thing I thought when I saw the title of this thread was "delusions."


I don't know if that's what it is but it sure sounds like that. If that is what it is, I really hope you get the help you need.


And just to throw this out there, the major psychotic disorders (schizophrenia, bipolar I) typically begin in early adulthood. You're a Generation Y, which means you're around that age now.

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

You sound like every INFJ I've ever met (granted, I've never met a sane one). Your paranoid delusions give you a sense of purpose. You could walk away from them but you never will. You'd be nothing without them.

I could say get a life, but there's no point. This is the life you've chosen. Enjoy!

you sound like every ISTP ive ever met . critical jerk who believes that anything outside of their narrow little atheist worldview and cute little dawkins textbook is a myth and fantasy . Too close minded and calcified to look beyond the matrix at the beautiful world that lies beyond .

PS , having a spiritual mission is more important than partying all day and making money for some rich corporate jerk at an office . but if thats your idea of life , than hey , enjoy

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

You sound overwhelmed. I personally haven't dug too deep into the occult or secret societies beacuse I have absolutely no influence over those things. The path you're on will get you nowhere but an early grave and a life full of needless frustration. Take a step back and find a more practical way to do good in tthe world. What you're doing clearly isn't benefitting anyone. and making yourself a target isn't good either.

if you dont protect yourself youll be unsafe , but if you find good ways to protect yourself and help humanity in a way that wont attract so much danger , youll live . I would say you just need to find ways to protect yourself instead of changing what you do ... if you want to though , changing what you do and helping humanity in a different way is OK

 

[rawrmosher]

You'd think people had learned by now the one, simple rule.

You. don't. fuck. with. the. ILLUMINATI

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

"You sound like every INFJ I've ever met (granted, I've never met a sane one). Your paranoid delusions give you a sense of purpose. You could walk away from them but you never will. You'd be nothing without them.

I could say get a life, but there's no point. This is the life you've chosen. Enjoy!"

I'll make note of what your saying but you have to understand that I am certainly experiencing what I say I'm experiencing I want a peaceful life like everyone else If I was looking for a purpose why would I look in a place so emotionally draining. I think you need to re-evaluate your world view and stop talking down to people as if your a specialist in every personality you come across.

disagree completely . its very judgmental to automatically assume something is a delusion just because it doesnt "seem" real . I though us INFJs were beyond that , i thought we were supposed to analyze the beliefs and evidence and see if theyre real ... innocent until proven guilty . i never would have guessed an INFJ could be as narrow minded as to automatically judge a belief an go with the mainstream instead of being open minded and supporting the under dog .

i mean no offence to you , but i have nowhere left to turn now . it seems everyone is a morally libertine , worldly , statist , government worshipping , atheistic , anti-spiritual , close minded , condescending , under-dog mocking , mainstream monster , even people who have chosen the same personality type i have chosen ( btw , i dont believe were born that way , its our chocie to become that ) . i feel disgusted . please help me god , i need a way . i need to find my way back to you

why cant we all keep our childlike innocence ? all i ask for is a world that does right and believes in the right thing . is that too much to ask ?

this world has become a cesspool of close mindedness , materialism , mainstream-worship , anti-spirituality , and anti-individualism , where murder is routinely justified through political BS . why cant we all just love and be innocent open minded children again , knowing there is something else out there beyond our narrow worldviews ?

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

missali contact me , i know how it is to feel all alone with seemingly no one on our side
dont think like that though . good always wins in the end . there are many on the bad side , dont you think there should be many on the good side as well ?
true we are scattered , but we shall unite . our love will overcome evil
every single human on earth will be saved in the end
together we will overcome.
whether through resistance , withdrawal , opting out , or awakening , we can help the world.
please message me if you need anyone to talk to
i feel all alone as well with no one on my side

 

[rawrmosher]

missali contact me , i know how it is to feel all alone with seemingly no one on our side
dont think like that though . good always wins in the end . there are many on the bad side , dont you think there should be many on the good side as well ?
true we are scattered , but we shall unite . our love will overcome evil
every single human on earth will be saved in the end
together we will overcome.
whether through resistance , withdrawal , opting out , or awakening , we can help the world.
please message me if you need anyone to talk to
i feel all alone as well with no one on my side

Man, are you ok? You seem a little upset? =)

 

[Sai]

you are a woman and support muslims?

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

Man, are you ok? You seem a little upset? =)

thanks . im ok , im just going through my own issues right now . emotional but not spiritual , still ...

 

[Dedekindly]

I find it unfortunate that INFJs could be so close-minded. In any case, I suggest you read about Dave Chappelle. Particularly, read about his leaving his show. Additionally, you (and all of these skeptics) might be surprised by the following video. I recommend you watch the entire thing, but the particularly relevant part starts at ~18:00. htt p:/ /w ww. youtube.c om/ watch?v=uAPAdYiJ6oI (sorry; remove the spaces. I can't post links yet. This isn't spam) Good luck

 

[Emerald Legend]

lol at illuminati. People really believe in this stuff??

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

lol at illuminati. People really believe in this stuff??

there are people who admit to being members of the illuminati . maybe us " conspiracy theorists " wouldnt believe in it as much , if the illuminati didnt go boasting around the internet about the people they sacrifice . if they could STFU about bragging about the crimes they do , that would be great

 

[The Dreamer from the Myst]

I find it unfortunate that INFJs could be so close-minded. In any case, I suggest you read about Dave Chappelle. Particularly, read about his leaving his show. Additionally, you (and all of these skeptics) might be surprised by the following video. I recommend you watch the entire thing, but the particularly relevant part starts at ~18:00. htt p:/ /w ww. youtube.c om/ watch?v=uAPAdYiJ6oI (sorry; remove the spaces. I can't post links yet. This isn't spam) Good luck

i agree . Enemies within the camp . Its shocking at first , until you realize things like that happen all the time . Enemies within the camp . Its like when people say " i cant believe someone like Bush rules a country founded on a document supporting liberty " . Why ? Because ... enemies within the camp . infiltrating ...

 

[Dedekindly]

lol at illuminati. People really believe in this stuff??

Yes. People a lot smarter than you believe it, I assure you. In any case, how does your comment help the OP? Even if you don't believe these things, why belittle the OP?