"Their thought process is utterly fixated on associations between things".It’s most likely you’re going with INFJ because you romanticise it, as it is your shadow.
Have you seen others who type as INFj in real life, other than online? They’re very not, rambling types. Same with most ENXJs I have seen, actually.
But anyway, self discovery is a lifelong journey. Good luck with the INFJ suit roud:
I think this is a very good description of how I think. The connections I make and how I choose to express them, I'd imagine can seem totally random but there's a 'method to the madness' and I see that in Ellen too. She's so quick to talk about how things make her feel instead of simply relaying events. The 'bounce' in her voice is similar to mine, too. I have a difficult time understanding what information is relevant and what isn't, so I tend to say it all! You can probably get a sense of that from how I type.
It may be the nature of the interview and that she is more mature than I am, but I would not be so abrupt in my speaking. Talking about any prejudice I've dealt with would result in long-winded, very heated statements about the 'state' of our world. I try to apply to people's sense of compassion and what relates us, when I'm talking about heavier topics and I tend to exaggerate things in my mind too. Everything carries weight and everything in our world is connected. I'm not religious, or even spiritual really, but that's how I feel. What I feel and what I think is real for me, whether it seems to be based in reality of not.
What I think is interesting, iss that, although you can sense the emotionality in her voice, you don't really see it in her movements. I can be sarcastic, jovial, disgusted, you hear those things in my voice and my body language might not always portray that. I do think I'm more spastic and intense than she is, which I know is saying something! Probably more reserved too. That may seem like a contradictory statement. But, despite how much I delve into a discussion and despite how much I try to connect with the listener, I still feel the massive distance between me and however I'm talking with. I'm not sure I could be "on" as often as she is either! But, maybe if it was my career to be entertaining I could manage it haha.
I'm interested in how you read my ennagram. I know even less about it than I do MBTI. Usually I type as a 4 or 5 but I wouldn't be surprised if 4w5 wasn't wholly accurate either based on what I do know. I'm not sure I'm too attached to the INFJ label? Maybe I am, I do feel that I have a "mystic" aspect of myself that I rely on in my everyday life. That could be a stereotype though! And, one of the primary reasons I was hesitant to align myself with INFJ is because I know how uncommon it is, so realistically it seems unlikely based solely on that. Why I doubt the ENFP label is because I do see how someone would initially type me as one, especially when I'm feeling more socially inclined, I'm not sure it fits though. I have an easier time being outright about myself on her because the anonymous nature of the forum. Again, you made a the point that I can focus on stereotypes a little much and you were absolutely right I think. I'm slow to open up and I'm neurotic as hell! I guess those must be treats I don't associate with ENFPs, even if this is only something that I've thought more subconsciously maybe. Hopefully that makes sense! I'm able to use analogies and I'm able to 'punctuate' my voice and connect with what my listener is thinking in person so explaining myself online can be hard. Unless I already know that person.
I'm not sure I know another INFJ. There is somebody I suspect is an INFJ and no, they are not as scatterbrained as I am. I can't deiced whether a friend of mine is an ESFJ or an ENFJ, I'm leaning ESFJ, but they are not as ramble-inclined as I am. I have a bad habit of saying things that really doesn't need to be said. If I think it, it's important I put it out there so I can see how people feel about it. I mean, unless it could be taken as rude or insensitive.
(Please do not feel like you have to response to such an all over the place message. Just thinking aloud! Thanks for your input, @xraydav)
Edit: I do think I'd be happier if I was more organized. But, what I really want if effortless connections with people who I 'get'. It's so hard to find that for me though. I'm jealous of my ESFP friend in a lot of ways because, even though he has BPD too, he's better at making friends with anybody. I'm nothing like that. That may be nether here nor there though.