I feel you there; I feel almost that exact way about my typing.
I hate being a four AND I hate being an INTJ. I wish I was a straight-up Core 5 instead of a Core 4 for lots of reasons. The most obvious being that fours are so damn introspective and pessimistic, I have to mentally prepare myself to get into any other type of mind-frame; the envy and such is definitely that kind of illogical stuff that I wish I could live without. Also, as a 4 I tend to do that 'squeeze all of the emotion out of a thing until it's meaningless' and 'gotta go find me a savior' bullshit. Its almost like I can watch myself outside of myself doing this stuff and I feel illogical.
It is like watching a character you really like on a TV show wrecking their life. 'Why do they do this, day in and day out?' and 'Can't they see that they are really just (yadayada) and perform this simple task to make themselves happy? Instead of doing the exact opposite thing all the time?'
Being an INTJ also makes me feel like my feeling is permanently... Childish, at best. I hate watching all of that turmoil going on from outside of myself and being lost. Watching other INTJ's perform the same actions as I also do (arguing with others over some rather minute detail, feeling like they know everything/being self-assured in knowledge and playing devil's advocate, as well as placing 'logic' above emotion even when it would realistically be more logical to take emotion into account during a particular situation as it arises) infuriates me at times. At least I also hate these situations when they arise and I can feel myself doing them too.
I have so much conviction when oftentimes I also have an inkling that perhaps that it should not be the case. It never really changes anything, but it does keep me at permanent odds with myself it seems. I go about my day staunch in my beliefs; call them to question when I am at home alone, and then I'm back in it to win it the next day without missing a beat irregardless of the introspection. As long as no data is presented to me that can adequately prove that I am wrong, then it does not change.
I hate it; I wish everything would feel simple.
Also, why did that become a rant? Sheesh.
EDIT:
At Home:
Me: I wish people would just see that everything is so simple. Do X not Y, be happy damnit.
Also Me: I wish my life was that simple, everything is so complicated.
Me Again: Wait, everyone's life feels complicated, I just have a really shitty worldview of downplaying everyone's problems in perspective of my own.
Me: So that means I should do Z not A and I'd be happy?
Also Me: But there's no way I could do that, I just feel like doing A.
Me Again: Stop overthinking things, I'm just falling into that metaphorical Four pit again. Sheesh.
Me: I should just stop.
Also Me: But obviously I must not want to stop, or else I already would have done this one of the last times I've went through this scenario.
With Friend that asked for Help:
Friend: -this is my problem-
Me: I'm sorry for your problem dude. That's some shit right there. You should just do X not Y.
Friend: I wish I saw everything with clarity like you do!
Me: