I have never been in a relationship, and the closest thing I have come to one is this messed up FWB thing that I have with a girl I met online several years ago. We met on an online game in around 2010, and we quickly became close friends and started talking to each other on skype after we stopped playing that said game. After we started video chatting, I started having strong feelings for her that remained unrequited until 2013, when she started making sexual advances and started complimenting my body. After that, I confessed my feelings towards her and she responded by telling me how much she was attracted to me, which I thought meant that she loved me. I gave into her requests, and our friendship became predominately sexual. A year later, I still remain nothing but a "fuck buddy" and I find out she has a few other people just like me who are also sexual friends with her. I just can't leave her though, she is my first "relationship" and I still have a lot of feelings towards her, but I'm so tired of sexting. I want real love, but I realize that is impossible because we live states apart. She doesn't want commitment though. How do I get away from this unhealthy friendship? How can I get myself out there in the real world for dating, and be able to approach someone without psyching myself out and backing down? How can I add purpose into my life, and to feel important and needed for another human being?