I'm currently working my way through college to be an electrical engineering technician, I'm seriously starting to question the point of it all, it's like an endless cycle of work and school all to chase the all mighty dollar.
I'm currently a computer technician at a local store, I don't particularally enjoy it, it's just a job to me.
I feel like a slave to societial standards, It just seems pointless, I don't give two shits about money yet I decided to get 40,000 dollars into debt so I can make one day make 20-25 dollars an hour. (half of which will probably go to pay off student loans for the next decade.)
I feel like an indentured servant, forced to play a societial role, forced to play this fucked up little game called "life".
It seems to all revolve around money, which I don't give two shits about.
I would be happy living in a small home in the country, growing my own food and living off the land, occasionally creating works of art or maybe even studying the universe (independently, not for money.) but in our modern society all of those things require this "energy" we call money.
Which in reality is worth absolutely nothing but everyone is content with living the lie, so the lie continues, simply based on a mass mindset.
The Majority agrees on a set of rules and we are all expected to live by them, even if they make absolutely no sense, I absolutely hate it. I recently had a dream, where I was talking to the spirits of my dead relatives, they told me I would be dead before 2019, in my dream I was quite elated, almost as if it was a release.
I am doing all of these things but I am not fulfilled, I am not happy, it is just a depressing cycle, I can't quit my job because my family relies on me to bring home the bacon, I just feel forced to live by a set of rules that I did not agree to, almost as if from birth I was forced into this world and to live by it's rules, it's almost as if living on an alien planet.
I know I'm rambling a bit but It's getting close to my bedtime so I'm a bit tired but I wanted to know if the rest of you feel the same way?
Does it seem unfair?
Do you feel like you are forced into a life of unhappiness only to satisfy others?
I'm currently a computer technician at a local store, I don't particularally enjoy it, it's just a job to me.
I feel like a slave to societial standards, It just seems pointless, I don't give two shits about money yet I decided to get 40,000 dollars into debt so I can make one day make 20-25 dollars an hour. (half of which will probably go to pay off student loans for the next decade.)
I feel like an indentured servant, forced to play a societial role, forced to play this fucked up little game called "life".
It seems to all revolve around money, which I don't give two shits about.
I would be happy living in a small home in the country, growing my own food and living off the land, occasionally creating works of art or maybe even studying the universe (independently, not for money.) but in our modern society all of those things require this "energy" we call money.
Which in reality is worth absolutely nothing but everyone is content with living the lie, so the lie continues, simply based on a mass mindset.
The Majority agrees on a set of rules and we are all expected to live by them, even if they make absolutely no sense, I absolutely hate it. I recently had a dream, where I was talking to the spirits of my dead relatives, they told me I would be dead before 2019, in my dream I was quite elated, almost as if it was a release.
I am doing all of these things but I am not fulfilled, I am not happy, it is just a depressing cycle, I can't quit my job because my family relies on me to bring home the bacon, I just feel forced to live by a set of rules that I did not agree to, almost as if from birth I was forced into this world and to live by it's rules, it's almost as if living on an alien planet.
I know I'm rambling a bit but It's getting close to my bedtime so I'm a bit tired but I wanted to know if the rest of you feel the same way?
Does it seem unfair?
Do you feel like you are forced into a life of unhappiness only to satisfy others?