I've gone to this point where i stopped caring. I was yelled at by my family for failing a 100pt quiz even though I was told that they'll understand if i tried my hardest. I do, I really do. And they expect the things we learn about to be easy because it was easy for them. They want me to think about colleges and I am still a freshmen.
Is it bad that I don't care at all about my future right now? I do care, but I just don't somewhat. I dunno, I feel really numb about the future even though being a failure or disappointment is absolute shit. I mean, going to a good college is great, I don't want to think about it. I feel exactly like the song "Going Through the Motions" from Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
I'm just really confused about everything. I just want to run away from everything, sorta like Margo Roth Spiegelman from Paper Towns by John Green.