My idealized version of reality is that all people are accepting and give unconditional love. I live day to day with the belief that if I need anything, then I can ask someone and they'll help me. This belief stems from the fact that I don't really have a life. I do not consciously think of my goals, my desires, my responsibilities; I don't do much thinking at all, so I assume that other people are as lazy as I am. Coming to this realization scares me because it means that not only have I not been engaging reality for the past 10 years of my life, but also the fact that other people have. I'm at a disadvantage. I'm different.I formed unrewarding habits. I made a mistake.Your Type Nine EnneaThoughtsm for October 9th—
Nines have so completely identified with an idealized vision of reality that they lack a sufficient sense of themselves to deal effectively with life. They don't allow anything negative to touch them deeply. Notice this tendency in yourself today. (The Power of the Enneagram audio tapes)
My question for you is what is your idealized vision of reality?