I feel unhappy with my life currently. When I think about my past, I wish I had done so much differently. When I look at my life now I don't think there's any tragedy or great soap opera, but I'm just not happy with it. I'm not some millionaire that has decided to travel to Alaska becuase I'm bored either. My life sucks in smaller ways, like for example my family lives in government housing, my room is poorly heated in the winter, that kind of stuff. I know I should get a job and learn how to drive because I'm 16. I should probably at least help with house work. I don't though, and a part of me wants to change, but I just haven't. I use have chronic health issues, I used to be pretty okay when I was 5 or so they things got continually worse. I had to go to the hospital when I'd have flare ups. Sometimes I had to go to one in a city that was a hour or 2 away from ours. So I never got to doing those responsibility things I was supposed to do, I think. We moved to the city where the hospital I sometimes got transferred to about 5 or 6 years ago. I have been in a lot better health the past year or so. I missed school when I was at the hospital in the smaller citiy I used to live in. When I was at the bigger city's hospital they had teachers, but I wasn't always easy to coordinate with my school. 4 years ago I started homeschooling, and the teacher there is more flexible. I really pulled through 7th grade, but in 9/8 th grade I just kinda quit and became super lazy, barely passing, in 10/11 grade (I'm in grade 11 right now) I decided to try a bit harder. Sometimes it feels like I lack direction in life, and I don't really know what to do. I also sometimes just don't care. I used to have passions and knew what I wanted to do at least in that period of my life. Now I don't really have anything to care about. I think I have a lot of gaps of knowledge missing. My math teacher offered to help me but I feel so awkward talking about it. I also used to think I knew what I was doing in life when I was younger, I thought I was a smart girl who could accomplish anything through a little hard work. Now I question wether I was just faking it and wether I am actually capable or intelligent.