I don't know why I am, people say I am. People say I'm irritating, annoying, mean, rude, and otherwise too random and talkative, I'm pretty outgoing though, I'd talk to anyone and everyone. I used to hit people randomly last year because I wanted to, I hugged people randomly, said really creepy/perverted things, forced myself to talk more, forced myself to act like the other talkative people in my class because I wanted to be popular for once in my life, came off as fake, and in general came off as really weird, annoying, and just gave off that vibe that made other people go like "Just go screw yourself and die!!!" How do I change this? I don't hit people randomly or say creepy/perverted things out loud(atleast try not to) How do I show people? And how do I be the best I can be?