I'm currently in love with an ENTJ.
But I don't really want to date him.
Because, I know that I prefer the idea I have of him than the real him.
I don't love him, I love the idea of chasing an ideal.
And I do that with nearly anything.
I love to dream and fantasize - in order to walk toward something - while being totally conscious that (deep inside me) I don't wish to succeed because reality will never fit my expectation.
While walking toward this empty dream, I enjoy the walk,
And that's my real joy in my endless pursuit. Enjoy my every step, while dreaming of the next ones.
I wonder if that's twisted. But I love living this way.
As long as I dream of a future, there's something to look upon, and somewhere to go. It keeps me enthusiastic, it keeps me in motion. As long as I know it's only a void dream, I can enjoy everything the way it is, and be aware of what the world has to truly offer.