I hate having to deal with too many facts/details at once, because I don't know what to do with them. I don't know how to order them or what's supposed to be important or what can be ignored. I have very little, or no, preface for the intended purpose of this information. It's like someone coming up to you and dumping a load of firewood in your arms without so much as a howdy-do. All you're left with is an armload of firewood and a lot of confusion. "What am I supposed to do with all this! What was that all about anyway?"What a brilliant comparison! That is exactly what it is.
But what I don't understand is...How is it even possible feel that way about Se, the most straightforward, honest, uncomplicated function in existance? It makes so much sense for me that Ni is my inferior function because it is confusing and paranoid and dark and vague, but Se!? So simple. I mean, obviously that has much to do with me BEING an Se dominant, but how? I know I just kind of asked you this in my thread, but how does Se feel to you? Or anyone reading this with Se as their inferior? Does it feel the same for everyone? Being "in the grip" of your inferior function? What is it about Se that makes you UNCOMFORTABLE?
I also don't always trust what's in immediately front of me. I cannot easily believe that what's right there in front of me is all I need to concern myself with. Surely there is more to it than that. It must mean something. There must be some kind of connection between this thing right here and some other thing I've perceived. To be told there is no connection is to cause me to scoff and think, "Yeah right. You just haven't seen what that connection is. Worry not, I'll find it for both of us."
When Se does see it's day, it's usually overused to the point where Ni is almost eclipsed from the process. It's an infantile reaction to what I'm perceiving through that function. I may make a decision too quickly and without considering the consequences simply because I felt pressured to decide right at that moment. I may create a project, only to neglect a number of important details that were irrelevant to the main goal, but vital to allowing that project to properly function simply because I didn't even notice those details missing. Properly incorporating Se into my life involves recognizing that I will probably miss something of that nature and I should forgive myself for not getting the real-world application of whatever it was right the first time. I should make myself double check my work and run it through several test runs to be sure I haven't forgotten anything (though I dislike doing this, because I inherently find any bug testing tedious and annoying). Or, even better, have a friend be my eyes and help me see what I cannot.
When stressed, my experience will be over-detailed, over-saturated with facts that have little bearing on the matter at hand, over-complicated. I have to use the mantra "Keep It Simple Stupid" quite often in order to reign in my need to apply far too much information where it isn't necessary, because I'm worried that someone won't understand my meaning.
When Se works for me, it works amazingly. For example, I learned to paddleboard by mentally applying what I understood from kayaking to this new sport. As soon as I had the paddle in my hands, I was going just fine as if I'd done it all my life. Or the time when I snatched the basketball right out from under the school's star point guard. I did it without thinking and it happened so smoothly even I was surprised (we were playing co-ed, so, mind you, this was also a 6 1/2 foot tall young man). Moments later, Se "crashed" and I passed it clumsily, didn't notice where the ball was, and generally went back to being very mediocre at the sport.
So, when Se works, it works just fine. I'm able to apply concepts and models in a practical fashion such that the result is both functional and meaningful. But that's the problem with Se being inferior. It either works and is absolutely amazing and something miraculous happens that no one, not even me, could have expected, or it doesn't work at all and I'm floundering until I get my head wrapped around the current environment.