I remember when I was somewhere between 6-7, I would have to stay in my room when my parents had friends over. We lived in California at the time. (I was a military brat--moved often) I would get bored sometimes, and one day I was stuck in there for hours. I felt pretty lonely, and after throwing a babyish temper tantrum, where I banged on the doors and yelled for my parents, I started to pray.
I wasn't raised in a very religious family. I think my mom was raised Roman Catholic, but only practiced it when our extremely Irish Grandmother comes into town. My father was raised some type of Baptist, but I've never seen him practice it.
But when I was praying I felt really connected to God. Unfortunately, I prayed for super powers. I kept focusing my thoughts externally, asking for super powers. When I woke up the next day, I was disappointed that God wouldn't give me powers after I could do so much good.
Instead of losing my belief I started to wonder why he would choose to not comply to my outrageous request. I came to the idea that I had to
prove myself before I'd be worthy of requesting anything.
My idea of spirituality has evolved something fierce since then, but I wonder how much those thoughts have impacted my perspectives. At the time they felt very important.
Thanks
@DJL for creating this thread. I was reminiscing this earlier today and thought about making a thread for simular stories. I think this one works great for it. :happy: