I have taken the Enneagram tests (a couple different ones) several different times and have gotten different results from each...I'm very comfortable with MBTI but this is blowing my mind... :O
I need some help!
I am an INFJ
(also I am a Supine in the 5 temperaments)
In the past I've gotten 5, 4, 6 and 9.
If you have any ideas of what I could be, PLEASE don't hesitate to help!!
Main Questions
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
purpose. I want to be loved and I want to mean something in the world and in others' lives.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I want to have children and be a wife. I want to be an artist. I want to be happy and to be content and peaceful. I want to make a difference in my family and to leave something worthwhile to pass on to my children. I'd like them to remember me for something special.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to be the reason someone has a deep rooted issue, emotionally, spiritually or mentally.
I value honesty, consistency, integrity, passion, justice, empathy, love, and peace.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
I am afraid of being rejected, betrayed or left alone, because I want to feel accepted, loved and worthwhile.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I want others to see me as fair, loving, compassionate, and wise.
I see myself as intuitive, sensitive, reflective and emotional.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel my best when I am appreciated for what I do for someone.
I feel my worst when I am rejected by someone, whether in a job, relationship or any other setting.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
I internalize anger and attempt to not feel it at all. I don't like feeling angry and feel guilty for expressing it. When I do express it, it is very intense and explosive. I have very little control once I express my anger.
I also internalize shame and try to ignore it. I don't like to face shame and will usually do what I can to completely forget it.
I am marked by anxiety- I always have been. I have many panic attacks and phobias, as well as OCD (an anxiety disorder). I withdraw, physically shake, and become paralyzed in fear. I don't eat, don't sleep and generally don't talk until the anxiety goes away.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
I respond to stress by trying to control it. I try to do everything I can to get rid of it and to organize and plan what could affect it. I obsess over the issue and try to understand it as much as possible. I'm a textbook over-analyzer.
I usually am not very receptive to unexpected change, but it depends on how severe of a change it is. A small change will throw me off, but I will quickly try to plan again on short notice. Once it's planned again, I will be fine with the change. If it is a significant change, I sometimes have an emotional reaction such as crying or panicking. I become anxious about big changes (such as life-changing changes) and withdraw by becoming very aloof and detached so as to protect my emotions.
I respond to conflict by withdrawing and attempting to please others. I usually do not show emotion when in conflict, and avoid raising my voice or using hand gestures. I become very stressed and anxious, and often lose the ability to verbally articulate my opinion. If the conflict goes on for a long period of time without coming to resolution, I will eventually seek out resolution in some way-- even if that means having to face the conflict itself. The long term resolution is more important to me than the short-term stress of conflict.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
I do not like to have nor desire to have authority or power. I prefer to be a follower and to have someone else lead, as long as I feel that they are doing what is right. If I feel that the person in power is unjust or immoral, I become stubborn and refuse to follow. I would not try to take over power in that situation, however; I would likely leave the situation altogether, or try to remove the authority figure from power by going above that person's head.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
I see each person as an individual with an emotional history and status. I want to understand and empathize every person I come in contact with...or even people I just see on the side of the road. I want people to be fulfilled and happy in life. It saddens and angers me to see any type of suffering in the world, and I wish that I could stop it all. I empathize deeply with people and feel their pain daily.
Optional Questions
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
When I was very young, I was sexually harassed. I responded to it by withdrawing and becoming extremely fearful and anxious. I lost all trust in men completely-- even family members. I internalized the stress and did not really deal with it until much, much later in life. I still have emotional reactions to things that remind me of the incidence.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I do not trust easily, quickly, or loyally. I immediately distrust others and worry that they will hurt me, and then slowly build trust in them. If they break that trust, I start from ground zero. There is a point where I shut people out completely and will not trust them again, but that is a reasonably far-off point. I give people lots of chances, ironically. But once they are shut out, they are shut out for good.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
I like most that I am intuitive, funny, smart, empathetic, creative, artistic and sensitive.
I dislike most that I am withdrawn, complex, hard to understand, awkward, anxious, highly emotional and easily stressed.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
Their emotions and their inner thoughts. I know why people do things even when they don't know it themselves.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
I am very offended and hurt when insulted by a stranger. I do not respond, but I am very deeply wounded. I obsess over the incident long after it is over.
If they compliment me, I take it seriously as well, if I read that they are being genuine and not trying to flatter me. I say thank you and try to turn the conversation away from myself so as not to seem conceited.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I'm thankful that I have a husband, a dog and a cat. I love them and they love me.
I wish I could have a child. It's an inner longing I've always had, and I'm aching for a baby. I guess I don't totally know why on that one.
