This is the best nightmare Ive ever had. All I want is to experience the horror of life.
Brave for sharing feelings? Nah, it comes naturally to us haha.Hello! I'm new here. I must admit I haven't read the whole tread, but I've come across emotionally moving stories. I'm proud of my fellows INFP openly sharing their feelings. You're all brave!
(I'm French, so please apologise the oddities of my speech)
Here I go:
1) At almost 26 years old, I've been living at my parents my whole life, I feel ashamed about it, as if I were still a kid, so much that I avoid telling people. I can't afford my own place and I'm too introverted to share a flat with other people. Having my own place seems to be something out of reach for me.
2) Despite living with my parents and brother, I have a hard time connecting with them. They are sometimes hurt by my attitude and must view me as a cold, unloving and seclusive person.
3) During my last year in high school, I had a massive crush on a girl I hardly knew. I hardly ever spoke to her, and I avoided her most of the time because I was too shy and insecure. It gave rise to many awkward situations, so awkward I still feel uncomfortable to think about them. I spoke to her a little IRL and via Facebook after high school. It was nice but also weird and awkward. The conversation died out and I've deleted my Facebook account some time afterwards. I haven't add her to my new account, decided to let go the past. I still feel somehow connected to her, as if our lives were linked. A few months ago, seven years after, I came across her in a town, several hundred kms away from home. She noticed me but I was too shy to go and speak to her. I don't know whether she was shy or just ignoring me. To this day, I feel so bad about not having had enough courage to speak to her that time and during high school.
Haha, I feel like this when I post something and my ENTJ friend DOESN'T react at all...I wonder if what I posted is crappy and I should practise more (e.g. a video of something I learned on an instrument) as she is also a musician.Too personal to make a thread. Sorry for posting here.
Still have no idea about myself, idk if it's normal for infps. I'm just currently hurt by my bestfriend's act to me (tested as entp). We're so close and like to share anything about our feelings.
I sent poem (kind of) to my small very circle friends, about how i feel, how i view a problem that matters our circle in different ways. Questioning myself, i used a question sentence, with 'I' as subject in that poem. And my best friend, she playfully tried to do "reaction" of my poem, by reading and gave her insights to it through voice notes. I was excited by her idea.
But what she did do to me? She read like 1 sentence, and tried to gave her long insight and said "i would not be like that. I'd do blablablablaaah" in long sentences. Then she continued reading out my next sentence, and she's like "i would blahblahblahblah" about her own thoughts.
I mean, even usually in reaction video i watch, the reaction was just "hahahaha," "oh i like this" or usually even if they'd give a very long review, they did after finishing watched the video. And mine is not even a video, it's my writing. Maybe because it's a questioning writing, but it's just how i styled to express mine. I didn't do interview!
My ears just couldn't take anymore. It's like violating my pride. And why couldn't I stop my tearsss lmao. I complained to her, i felt like intimidated. She said she didn't mean to, and also inspired by my poem. But the way she react wasn't just right for a kind of poem. Idk by the time being, i'm not that good listener like i used to be. I didn't dare to finish her long "reaction", but feeling bad that i "rejected" her genuine long responds. Never had this experience before tho... Too weird to confess to her that i'm this hurt and cried a river lol
( i feel better after writing this :happy: )
In case you want to make a mistake, my offer is still open.So I tell myself;
Well, congratulations, you live the near-perfect practical life, but now you completely lost the romantic life (in the broadest sense of the term).
Life needs romance, whether that be in terms of relationships, adventures, passionate projects of the heart, you name it. In all fairness, life is a lot easier when practicalities are dealt with, because then you have time to burn and do whatever you want, which in the end is maybe even more important for strong Fi-user? The last thing you want is someone else to dictate your life because of practicalities (work, finance, education, living circumstances, restrictions of whatever kind, co-dependancies, BABIES, you name it).
So, fine, i'll just do my thing and daydream on, at least i'm not a bankrupt corona victim. I'll sit this one out, I've already had my low point past decade. Let's enjoy the low maintenance practicalities that i've created and see what happens. It ain't all that bad. After all I can always become a sugar daddy or import brides. That's how it works right?
End conclusion: It's better to be endlessly bored and uninspired and waste your life, than to have suffocating problems.
God, I always pledged not to become like INTJ uncle, but it is getting more and more like it.