I have tried to make my flexible eight hours better spent or more ideal as I came to the conclusion at work that I probably don't care or have the ability to make that particular job ideal. I try and plan things for my evening whilst grinding the monotony at work, what I will write here, what I will search on Google to try and find a life true to me etc. yet when I get here to the computer very little actually gets done. I've allowed myself very generous amounts of free time these past few years by keeping outgoings and social commitments small but having large amounts of time and few financial burdens hasn't stopped me procrastinating or being lazy. I lament how I was planning the same thing literally a year previously but still can't bring myself to make my flexible eight hours ideal and to carry them out as such. I can blame procrastination/tiredness/boredom etc. but I only have myself to blame.