@ElliCat You're right. I think I tend to get a little to caught up in my romantic ideals at times. Though, I hope I don't come off as a predator. xD Actually the idea of coming on to strong or acting desperate often manifests my awkwardness. When I'm conversing with someone I'm interested in I tend to break off the conversation when I feel I've said to much. In fact, I sometimes won't even approach people because I worry i'll be bothering them. 
Currently I'm taking classes in which I have great interest in. I'm still pretty shy but i've met many kind people through school. Also, working at my job has helped me to crawl out of my shell bit by bit. I have had people ask me out on dates but I suppose i'm a little apprehensive to take that plunge. Which I know sounds completely counterintuitive. :frustrating: Even guys who don't see me as awkward I still struggle with. I think it's actually a fear of failure on my part. I often can't stand the thought of being rejected. I want a relationship but I'm still scared to commit to people. I don't want to fail them or myself. I feel as though my awkwardness stems from the fact that I want to be in a relationship but at the same time I'm entirely afraid of it.
Now that I've actually typed this up i'm realizing that I may be a bit fearful of rejection. Of which I should probably work on before I decide to get seriously involved with anyone. As you said,
"- Relatively confident, at least enough to be authentic and hope for the best
- At peace with my singleness (i.e. not desperate)
- Knowing what I want out of life and out of a relationship"
I need to fortify these strengths more before I decide to take a flying leap into a relationship.
Thank you so much for taking the time to right such an insightful response, I really appreciate it! I also appreciate the tough love approach as well I feel it made the post all the more honest.
Currently I'm taking classes in which I have great interest in. I'm still pretty shy but i've met many kind people through school. Also, working at my job has helped me to crawl out of my shell bit by bit. I have had people ask me out on dates but I suppose i'm a little apprehensive to take that plunge. Which I know sounds completely counterintuitive. :frustrating: Even guys who don't see me as awkward I still struggle with. I think it's actually a fear of failure on my part. I often can't stand the thought of being rejected. I want a relationship but I'm still scared to commit to people. I don't want to fail them or myself. I feel as though my awkwardness stems from the fact that I want to be in a relationship but at the same time I'm entirely afraid of it.
Now that I've actually typed this up i'm realizing that I may be a bit fearful of rejection. Of which I should probably work on before I decide to get seriously involved with anyone. As you said,
"- Relatively confident, at least enough to be authentic and hope for the best
- At peace with my singleness (i.e. not desperate)
- Knowing what I want out of life and out of a relationship"
I need to fortify these strengths more before I decide to take a flying leap into a relationship.
Thank you so much for taking the time to right such an insightful response, I really appreciate it! I also appreciate the tough love approach as well
I feel it made the post all the more honest.
