Red flag, red flag, danger danger Will Robinson. When you say "help her through life," were you simply being supportive in a more passive role, or did you actually have some sort of idealized vision of her in your head - a way that you felt she "ought" to be, or a direction she "ought" to go - that you were subtly manipulating her (maybe not intentionally) towards?
A more callous version of the same question: did you value her as a friend and as a person, as good company and someone you genuinely enjoyed having around; or did you see her as a "project?" Both of the above? Neither of the above?
The wording - trying to "help her through life" - makes you sound a bit controlling, which would definitely be a good enough reason for me to shut someone out.
Yes, she was both a project and a wonderful person, but the only way in which I helped was by removing every obstacle that she herself designated between herself and what she wanted to be/do.
I know she's a paranoid schizophrenic with split personalities, but her other personality is a friend, and I've never done anything to hurt either of them (other than scaring the other personality into being less aggressive, which I shortly afterwards made up to her), so I for one can't see the problem there.
Yes, she asked me one time to stop making her problems my own "because I might get hurt", but after an hour long talk, she accepted that letting me help was beneficial to us both. This was about 2 months ago.
Lately she's been cutting off a lot of her friends, to, again, stop herself from hurting them, but she told me "I couldn't hurt you even if I tried."
Not sure if that's her calling me stupid or a genuine compliment, but I'm assuming the latter.
Helping her kept me from stressing out in my day to day life, helping her cheered me up, and now I can't even do that much for her, and what makes it even worse is that she found the only way I can think of to actually cause me distress, which is to cut me off without giving me either a warning or a reason.
She was one of my emotional anchors, and she didn't even know it, as I was rarely emotional with her, always matter-of-fact, concise, the same as her in almost every logical and vocal manner.
PS: loving the Lost In Space reference.