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Because i would say that is me alot of time!
its almost like part of me loves being me and wouldnt change it for the world, but another part of me think im all wrong and i was'nt meant to be like this??
Im outgoing, like most of us, and i have a good couple of groups of mates, but so far no boyfriend (22 but have had part time lovers) and i wouldnt say im miss popular on the social scene, in fact i can be quite socially arkward inless i know you or i just happen to click with someone. i have no interest in talking to strangers nor do i really know what to say, but part of me wishes i could just chat to anyone (another conflict)
also any sort of criticism really knocks me, like if someone refered to me as 'stand offish' who even barely knew me, i would take deep offence, and assess how i have created that impression (obviously hoping that comment wont get said again). which logically i know its ridiculous, everyone gets a negative comment now and then, so why is it i cannot bare it? it almost feels like i have failed? lol
I also feel like i am a very free spirit, who has so many ideas, energy and confidence to go anywhere and do anything and be ok because anything i have set out to do (and followed through with hehe) i have passed with flying colours, but yet i stick to what i know, waste time being lazy and often come across as an introvert.
hmpth. i really feel like i have lost that little spark that made me, me. i did go through about 5 years of depression. which i dont think has helped my confidence really.
anyone else ever feel like that they are trapped in a box? a box we call 'main stream'?:crazy:
its almost like part of me loves being me and wouldnt change it for the world, but another part of me think im all wrong and i was'nt meant to be like this??
Im outgoing, like most of us, and i have a good couple of groups of mates, but so far no boyfriend (22 but have had part time lovers) and i wouldnt say im miss popular on the social scene, in fact i can be quite socially arkward inless i know you or i just happen to click with someone. i have no interest in talking to strangers nor do i really know what to say, but part of me wishes i could just chat to anyone (another conflict)
also any sort of criticism really knocks me, like if someone refered to me as 'stand offish' who even barely knew me, i would take deep offence, and assess how i have created that impression (obviously hoping that comment wont get said again). which logically i know its ridiculous, everyone gets a negative comment now and then, so why is it i cannot bare it? it almost feels like i have failed? lol
I also feel like i am a very free spirit, who has so many ideas, energy and confidence to go anywhere and do anything and be ok because anything i have set out to do (and followed through with hehe) i have passed with flying colours, but yet i stick to what i know, waste time being lazy and often come across as an introvert.
hmpth. i really feel like i have lost that little spark that made me, me. i did go through about 5 years of depression. which i dont think has helped my confidence really.
anyone else ever feel like that they are trapped in a box? a box we call 'main stream'?:crazy: