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I have a tendency of making girls crack. Let me explain.
I've dated different types: ISFP, ENFJ, INFP, INFJ, INTP Now, really, I'm not sure what they see in me, because I'm a loser, but I think I know. I have this crazy romantic ideal...I become like some silly poetic bard, or heroic crusader of love... I have many creative ways of expressing my romantic interest in women. The result is I can make certain types do uncharacteristic things. Like the "usually cool" INTP who became super vulnerable pouring out her emotions and grief to me when I wanted to break up... or the "normally mysterious" INFJ who revealed all, leaving no more mystery. The "normally uppidy" ENFJ became really depressed for a while after we split. The ISFP and INFP left their boyfriends for me (one only temporarily).
I'm definitely not proud about any of this. The thing is, I'm an illusionary perfectionist, so in a relationship I often want be the "perfect guy" for the woman...nay, I want the girl to realize that there is no other guy out there like me. The problem is, I set the bar too high, even for myself!!! So when I realize I really can't meet their expectations I break both our hearts.
I really want to start a relationship the right way, but I know no other way... I really want to give these women the best I can give, but there's no way I can keep up! Is this just a silly game I play--a test to see how far a woman will go for me? I feel so cruel. I have a deep-seeded doubt that I'll ever be in the long-term permanent relationship that I desire.
I'm really sorry ladies. I apologize to each and every one of you.
I've dated different types: ISFP, ENFJ, INFP, INFJ, INTP Now, really, I'm not sure what they see in me, because I'm a loser, but I think I know. I have this crazy romantic ideal...I become like some silly poetic bard, or heroic crusader of love... I have many creative ways of expressing my romantic interest in women. The result is I can make certain types do uncharacteristic things. Like the "usually cool" INTP who became super vulnerable pouring out her emotions and grief to me when I wanted to break up... or the "normally mysterious" INFJ who revealed all, leaving no more mystery. The "normally uppidy" ENFJ became really depressed for a while after we split. The ISFP and INFP left their boyfriends for me (one only temporarily).
I'm definitely not proud about any of this. The thing is, I'm an illusionary perfectionist, so in a relationship I often want be the "perfect guy" for the woman...nay, I want the girl to realize that there is no other guy out there like me. The problem is, I set the bar too high, even for myself!!! So when I realize I really can't meet their expectations I break both our hearts.
I really want to start a relationship the right way, but I know no other way... I really want to give these women the best I can give, but there's no way I can keep up! Is this just a silly game I play--a test to see how far a woman will go for me? I feel so cruel. I have a deep-seeded doubt that I'll ever be in the long-term permanent relationship that I desire.
I'm really sorry ladies. I apologize to each and every one of you.