I notice every time I start feeling good it turns into sadness and depression, in a matter of days. I just start thinking about it, and the absence, and it just doesn't seem like they're should be that good feeling or I'm just not deserving maybe. Mainly, it's like it sets the bar high then I shrink from it so much I see just how sad I am and it just exaggerates it. I start thinking about all the possibilities of social interaction and just become fearful of the future. I think that is what exaggerates it because I'm lonely, then it lets up (feeling good) then I become fearful and want to be alone, but I'm lonely. I am extrovert too, being around people energizes me, I'm become more efficient and talkative. which just makes it a even bigger contradiction. (I know I restated it many times but that's how it came out of my thoughts.)
Am I just being too sensitive here just need to suck it up?
Am I just being too sensitive here just need to suck it up?