Basically, I know I have social anxiety. I've been working extremely hard at trying to not let myself think that people automatically don't like me but that thought is a constant in any social situation despite knowing it isn't true. What this has also done is make myself spread out way too thin. Maybe it's self confidence issues too but I just constantly wonder what it is anyone would like about me? I find myself boring, awkward, and unnatractive - whether this is the cause of my social anxiety, the result of my social anxiety, or part of a vicious cycle, I have no idea. But I basically have three pretty close circles of friends that I spend time with pretty regularly. I also have a girlfriend who I think I want to break up with because I feel like she doesn't value me but again, I don't know if that is my anxiety talking or not. But anyways, I'm not especially close with anyone aside from the one high school friend I still have who I talk with at most once per month. And this kills me. I constantly feel like an outsider and any sort of semi-criticism or knock on myself tends to make me completely withdrawn. Yet I know, deep down, that these people do like me. I mean, I'm constantly having to say no to plans but I never really feel truly satisfied with any of these people. Maybe someone can help me or maybe I just needed to vent. I really don't know. I just feel so lost and horrible about myself right now.